Yep Yep!

Here I am on the phone again and...
Awkward silences on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now ) all I feel (all I feel) is the pain of fighting starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes,
best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that, no not for you
If you just stay with me we can make it through
So here we are again the same old argument
Now I'm wondering if things will ever change
When will you laugh again,
laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise 'til 3 am,
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

Down, down,down...

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Don't say a word, (Please don't leave...)
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, (Please don't leave...)
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
~Say Anything~Good Charlotte

Yup, so i am obssessed with this song now. And no comments on as to why *cough cough* KAILA! *cough* But anyhoo. So lets see, ooh! I got my binder back! I was complaining to helen about how it sucks that i lost it and then i looked at the floor under Jared's desk and BAM! its there!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sorry im so hyper. I had a muffin this morning. haha. Muffins=hyper. hyper=talkative. talkative=babbling. babbling=plappern plappern=long ass blog today.
haha. which = UR SCREWEDDDDD!!!! SO!!!!!!!!! guess what! there is a new word! So the new word is REJECTATED. usage: You are rejectated! Story behind it: So Mom banned the word retard as in "youre so retarded" and so i was like "you such a reject!" and i tried to say rejectation and it came out rejectated. haha! So I found another cool song on my oh so fabulous ipod, Prince(and sometimes Princess) Cole! So heres the uber awesome song!

You're so good to me Baby Baby

I wanna lock you up in my closet, when no one's around
I wanna put your hand in my pocket, because you're allowed
I wanna drive you into the corner, and kiss you without a sound
I wanna stay this way forever, I'll say it aloud
Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby

I can make you feel all better, just take it in
And I can show you all the places, you've never been
And I can make you say everything, that you never said
And I will let you do anything, again and again
Now you're in and you can't get out

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
[ Hot lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby

Kiss me gently
Always I know
Hold me love me
Don't ever go

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me Baby Baby
You're so good to me Baby Baby

You're so good
~Hot~Avril Lavigne~

UGH! i am soooo glad that Blogger has an automatic save! my computers being a jackass and internet explorer keeps coming up saying "Internet Explorer has encountered a problem and needs to close" then WHOOSH! its gone! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!! Its kinda annoying! So what am i gonna babble on about today?! I think my readers have abandoned me because i havent gotten any comments recently. I know Kaila did and i think Helen did too. And I think i've lost KAnsas too. Oh! i know what i can talk about! So theres this really cool show on abc family called greek about these frats and soritorys and theres Cappie (played by Scott M. Foster who would be the most amazing Edward ever!) who is like amazing hes the president of the most amazing frat ever, Kappa Tau. This frat is the ultimate frat. They have like this alcohool volcano which kicks ass and its just amazing! Like last nights episode the Omega Chi, the opposing frat, taped Rusty (a pledge to Kappa Tau who is affectionately called Spitter) to the side of a building with duct tape as part of revenge in a prank wars. I think theat the Kappa Taus will so win the prank wars because Evans not that smart when it comes to getting out of situations like this--getting caught by the cops i mean. And Cappies just hilarious. Like one line hes talking to his ex girlfriend/spitters sister/evans ex/ Casey. And hes like hell lets just say whats on our minds....how could they cancel Gilmore Girls! I'm looking at some of his lines now and i'll post them so u can see how amazing Cappie really truly is! And then Cappies like "wristbands? good, god, man! Not wristbands!" haha "And he looks like he's about to overdose on khaki" and this one was from Rusty ditched the frat to try to hook up with ish ex girlfriend. And Cappies trying to console him and hes like "Beaver was without cheesitos. you bring him his cheesitos. It's bros and cheesitos before hos." Priceless. "Let me tell you something Beaver. Women are like ions in a dense plasma, bustling along, snatching unsuspecting electrons to make themselves complete. But your brothers...we're electrons in a tenuous plasma. Never tempting each other to recombine, just happily coexisting....I love you...electron. I think i'm drunk." from Cappie obviously.
calvin: "So what are the class requirements for Kappa Tau?"
cappie: "hmm......one class per semester"
Calvin is a pledge to Omega Chi. This was obviously during Rush. "I haven't been this impressed since Jennifer Hudson in Dreamgirls" lets just say that anytime Cappie opens his mouth, you have constant laugh attacks. lol but yeah, Cappies amazing. HEs probably the best character on there.
Okay, my dears, I'm gonna get off here for awhile and got add some tags onto my other posts so i know what songs are where.
♥
mucho loveo
~Kayy ♥

Well then......

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Cuz you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never wanna say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Time won't tell
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

~Faint~Linkin Park~

So Mucho Thanks to HElen for putting up a guest blog. And Mucho Thanks to Kansas for the Music HElp and for the comments on "Adeventure?"! See but the problems with just going is the seven months in juvie for "running away" (or i would be in Japan by now) and then the fact that i have no legal means of trnsportation yet. Or else believe me, I'd be gone. And if I could, I'd be in Japan by now too. What? You dont know about Japan? Oh really..... okay so....a friend of mine (k so a little bit more than a friend, bite me.)....James offered to take me on a trip with him. And I told him i wanted to go to Japan. Why Japan? I dont know, the school was hosting a contest for people to go to Japan and I said I wanted to go to Japan so theres Japan. And thats been the inside joke for the past, what?, month. month and a half. SOmething like that. SO whenever im sick of the house or parents, you say your ready for Japan. And in all reality, if i could go to Japan with James, I swear i would go. LIke if it came down to meeting the real Edward Cullen and being with Edward forever, and going to Japan with James for a day, then Tokyo here I come! (Tokyo is in Japan, right?) Yeah pathetic, but get over it. WHo said life was perfect. Oh and speaking about life being shitty, I have no cell phone again. And then i got pissed so i threw the phone at the wall. And then punched the wall and now my hand hurts. Oh and speaking of hands, my flight commander in ROTC broke his hand. How? I dont know, but Sheldon broke his hand. Haha to him. And speaking of ROTC, BETH. So i havent informed you of the latest drama with her. Lets get play a little game of Catch Up so you are well informed..
Friday during class, about halfway through, she passes me a note. See below.
Beth: R U Mad at Me?
Me: No Never
Beth: What'd i do?
ME: Same thing You always do
Beth: What do i do?
Me: You're being a hypocritical whore looking for attention
Then she dramatically huffs and puff as she balls up the piece of paper and she LEAVES SCHOOL i pissed her off so bad. Hahahahahahahaha. And to make it better, i'm causing problems between her and her boyfriend Tim. So Tim goes to Powell and come sto KHS for Byington classes. And i started a rumor at Powell that Beth was cheating on him, and then told everyone at Karns, Tim was cheating on her. Which turned out to be true. haha. And so she was pissed at that when the note occured so haha i win. and then this morning, when i walked past her classroom she gave me this evil stare. It was amazing. hha.
Oh and i lost my binder this morning, so that sucks. I left it outside then havent seen it since. Helens textin everyone for me to see if someone grabbed it. And Sarah's looking for it too. So yeah.
And what sucks even more is i think im sick. either that or my allergies are acting up really bad. Either way it sucks. And i think i've gone mentally insane. I keep seeing things. Like last night, i wa strying to go to sleep and i kept seeing really flashy lights, like s strobe light on high. It was weird. then today. I keep seeing colors oout of the corner of my eyes. Like my white Hollister jacket looks purple right now. And this morning it looked pink. yeah weird. And then for some really odd reason i keep seeing my house on fire. Its WEIRD. And this morning, omigah. Apparently mom woke me up at 6. And i sat up and yelled at her. Then I went back to sleep and didnt wake up until 6:50 where she scremaed and yelled at me. ANd i thought i had already gotten up and showered. and for some reason, i wanted to tell her its okay, i wrote my poem. I'm like wtf? Does zyrtec do that to your brain, i dont think so! And now im looking at this optical illusions on brainbashers.com and whoa, its tripptacular. And most of them just confirm my "insane" suspcions. ahhh! oksy fo sho go to this. its amazing. wowzers....its giving me a headache. thank god. only fifteen more minutes in this godforsaken class. UGH!!!!! i just realized i have PT next!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK! I dont want PT! and this song is depressing. I love it though. It's posted below. And i have to ride home to Mimi's and i dont want to do that! that means I have to sit with BEth! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And i cant work on From Ebony to Ivory or anything because i lost my binder! this day just gets worse and worse huh? And Lets see now is "Fathers Son" by 3 Doors Down. Pretty good. Not the best song ever. I say thats "Say ANything" well best thats played this class period. ugh! Okay I am off to read these puzzzles on brainbashers.com
enjoy my song below

Here I am on the phone again and...
Awkward silences on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now ) all I feel (all I feel) is the pain of fighting starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes,
best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that, no not for you
If you just stay with me we can make it through
So here we are again the same old argument
Now I'm wondering if things will ever change
When will you laugh again,
laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise 'til 3 am,
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

Down, down,down...

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Don't say a word, (Please don't leave...)
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, (Please don't leave...)
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
~Say Anything~Good Charlotte~

Holiday.....

i figured i would start on a happy note for us so, hereya go. "Those Nights" by Skillet.

I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd

[Chorus:]
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the tv light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but her
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd

[Bridge:]
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us

I remember when
We used to laugh
And now I wish those nights would last

CMS does suck ass. i mean theres nothing really to do except that stupid plato shit that i wont have to do for a while since im ahead of everyone again. And then theres nothing but listen to our ipod, blog, and plot murders. I have one mapped out already (dont worry im not gonna murder anyone) lol. And now im trying to plot the worst thing ever for beth. See she is starting to annoy the shit out of me. She thinks that Everyone is a slut like her and says one minute "i love my boyfriend i wouldnt do anything to hurt him" and then the next minute, shes all over someone and calling the ROCTy guys "her boys." I told her i dont know how many times she does not own them!!! like Tony went to get a snack and Beths like did i say you could? i was like okay seriously you do not own them. Quit it! and then shes all over Cunningham and Evans and TOny and saying "oh i love tim" bullshit whore. then i called her a whore twice yesterday and not good. And shes very loud and annoying. Like for some reason she likes to talk in different accents. Like if everythings okay she talks very proper. then when shes pissed, she speaks in a british accent. and apparently when shes telling trucker tales and about adventures when she rode with her dad in his truck she talks in such a SOuthern godawful hick accent it makes Paula Deen seem like a damn Yankee. And then she makes this really weird strange sounds so loud the whole bus shuts up. Seriously? is that neccessary? So i was complaining today to HElen James and Rhiannon about how she was starting to get on my nerves and we came to the conclusion that i cant kick her ass and james made a very cryptic remark, "thats why you need a boyfriend." sorry buddy i can take care of myself thanks though. whatever though, and my arm has been killing me for the past ever. We played a really violent game in pt monday and i told everyone that if your gonna injure me leave a mark. Do they listen? no. so for the past few days i've been complain and bitchin over the fact that i have four (from what i can tell) bruises on the bone of my upper arm and it hurts and i just look like a reject comliaing about a nonexistant bruise. But it hurts. like i cant move it without it hurting. it sucks. and lets see what else.... oh so me and Sarah and Brandon snuck into the theatre earlier. Bryan was in there playing piano and we wanted to hear him so we went to the stage door and got inside and shut the door. We were just at the edge of the curtain when all the lights snapped on all of a sudden and we freaked and ran out. It turned out that Mr. Ellington heard Bryan playing, decided to see what was going on and Bryan got in trouble. it was great though. Pretty fun. ANd then what else...oh i think ima convicne mom to let me drive again. oh and speaking of driving, you havent heard the whole designated driver theory. so i was supposed to be Nikki's (my older sister) designated driver for her 21st birthday. Someone was going to watch Nikki's son Mason, whos two, and then i was gonna drive Nikki and Mom to COtton Eyed joes and wait outside while they got trashed. But then Nikki realized i would only have my permit then, so i pointed out that someone would supervise (mom and nikki would be there right?) and then she lovingly called me a 'tard and reminded me that the law doesnt count if the supervisor is "drunk off their ass" and So after convinceing her we wouldnt be pulled over because i have "excellent" driving skills, not even 24 hours later she calls and says she pregnant so there is no major bash where shes getting trashed and im the designated driver. Bummer. But that means that for her 22nd birthdday i'll have my license!!! yay!!! sooo i wont have to illegally drive. whoot whoot! ugh, my arm hurts. I just hit it on the desk. Verdammen Sie es zu Hölle (ooh, havent seen that in awhile!)My arm hurts!!! oh and i have a visible bruise on my forearm too. its like a purpleish color. I'm not sure if thats good or not but i know i rebruised it because it was healing and now its all purple again.
So
i'm gonna get off.
heres another song for you.
"Holiday" by Boys LIke Girls.
Makes me wanna go to Japan....

~kayy

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?
It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday (need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase (set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight