And Then My Whole World Blew Up and All That Was Left Was Remnants of Him....

i dunno. Dont Ask me about the title today, its emorific and absolutely perfect. Im kinda in like a emoness mood kinda not, idk. its weird. and im bored outta my everlovin mind. I wanna go sleep......... and stay up.....and do work....and nothing.....all at once.
Thats possible, right?

ugh so forget that for now, im bored.
oh so i might be getting a tattoo sooner than expected, i dont know yet. But Nikki knows this kid who makes really good fake IDs. and she might get me one so i can go with her to get her nose peirced and im getting a tattoo. Its gonna be the blue heart with pinkish purpleish outlining. Its there most the time anyway so why not make it permanent?

okay so now what? i want to go work more on From Ebony to Ivory/Devil's Servant/Saving Jaret/ whatever the hell im naming that damn book.

oh so Leann's retarded. She was snorting Baby Bottle Pop powder and she says the BEST statement ever

Im using my mouth not my nose

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa
okay.........

okay so my ipod is being annoying as hell. it keeps skipping some songs and it aint supposed to do that. At all.

So back to the tattoo thing. So in an attempt to show me how "bad a tattoo will hurt" Nikki had me take a needle and press it into where i want the tattoo over and over as hard as i could. then color with it at that pressure. And it didnt really hurt that bad, just red spots and bits of blood. It was fun though. I really dont think that shell really get me the ID though to do it and Mom sure as hell aint signing a consent form.

Oh so you want to hear something hilarious? Beth went to every class yesterday, but skipped third, lunch, adn missed the bus on purpose so she wouldnt have to "deal with all this drama." Kinda funyn when she is the cause of all the fucking drama. i think everyone finds it hilarious.

ugh so i want to go sleep on the half court line. dont ask me why the half court line, i think im starting to use it just as a way to say im sleepin during school end of story. dude, do u know how hard it is to type and write with busted knuckles? its......it doesnt hurt but its not very comfortable either. ugh, its annoying.
Ooh, i jusut got the random urge to go climb a tree. lets go..........

Bored Muchly ™

okay so ima go read old posts from Helens blogg.
bye

~Kayy

I'm Going to Therapy For My Bitch Problems....

well, I'm not, but whore-bitch Beth is. Well, least thats what she told Kirstyn. She told Kirstyn shes "going to therapy so i can start eating and work on my anger issues and my bitch problems." I was like really? because you cant stop being a bitch on your own? Here let me save her time and money....
haha
but i've been banned from kicking beths ass. by both James and Helen.
i cant do it...
bummer.
haha so guess what!
Cauis was walking into school and i go "CAUIS!" and he turns and i wave and hes like "...." it was great. and then as he told us in class he had a really bad morning, his tire exploded and he had to get a ride from his wife and the whole dialogue following that statement was funny. because someone said Cauis had to get a ride from his mommy and Causi is like "yes i got a ride from my mommy" just kidding around adn AJs like "I get a ride from my mommy" it was great. then Cauis had a bunch of phone calls to the guy that was supposed to pick up his acar off the side of the road and then he told us he was going to send this 'slave locked in the basement" after Mr. Parker, the guy who was supposed to pick his car up. and then he explained that the "slave has been locked in my basement for 26 years. he was frozen in ice. he's egyptian." then Nick (affectionately called Yoda) asked what his name was and Cauis is like dont worry about it you wont be able to pronounce it. So now we are saying that the Egyptian slave is really Felix. haha.
dude. im bore dto the extreme. and tired. I got four and half hours of sleep last night, me and Nikki went out. we have this tradition of going out on midnight walmart trips. and last nigth we took our wamart trip. First we went to Taco Bell to see Amber, one of her old high school friends. and then we went back to the house because Nikki forgot her debit card then we went to the Taco Bell in fron of walmart, then we went into Walmart and just walked around. And then at ONE IN THE MORNING we leave. it was pretty fun. I'm tired today though. And we're playing the Army recruiters in flag football next period. Fun....and i get to talk to Beth because thats all im allowed to do. Gah....im like half asleep.
dudeeeeeee so i think i figured a way to go to Dollyhood without having to take money from peopel *cough cough*. Nikkis told me if i want to go to dollywood just go and i think im just gonna go ahead and go with the everyone to dollywood and just plan to do somethign else with her next time shes in. so Kaila's got this one free admission thing that ima use until i got money to get my pass upgraded. she dont know bout this yet though. haha. dude...bored and tired and halfasleep and i pray that we play tackle when we play the recruiters because i will knock beth on her ass--even if shes on my team. okay u know what? im bored and half asleep adn i hate htis. Dude, so i havent drawn on my hand in like a week adn my hand has a blue and pink heart stained on there. its really faded now but its still there. thats so cool
oh so theres like only 13 more school days left. well, 14 including MAy 9th when im skippin to go to dollyhood. i just hope i get all my exams in before then. ah! i hate my shoelaces. I got new ones but they're really thin and dont really do anything, not even tie the shoe tight enough to stay on my foot adn its annoying as hell. dude. boredom. Oh so ...shit...i forgot.
nevermind.
dude its cold in here. .
gah i wanna go sleep. wither that or someone bring me coffee. i personally vote for u bringing me Starbucks because, hey lets face it, Starbucks just rocks. Plus, im not allowed to sleep--some dumbass thing Eddies making em do to "prepare me for being a vampire"
lol
dude..boredom.....
i just realized how much i say dude
i gotta quit that
im annoying myself. so i know i must be annoying u peoples.
im like fixing to fall asleep.
never again will i go on a walmart trip that lasts, what?, two hours?.
...
...
...
okay Music Gods, have your laugh. i personally dont think its funny to play soft songs on my ipod when im already fighting sleep.
thank you very much!
my ipods dying
i think i pissed them off.
sorry.....


so where am i going after school? do i want to be forced to sit with Beth and ride to Mimis or go home? normally on fridays i have to go to Mimis but because dads working late i get my choice. im thinking the house. so i can charge my ipod sooner.
and now im reading posts on IMDbc.com's message board bout things emmy would do/say
pretty funny shit.
jesus freakin christ could this period go by any slower?! the internet is boring when there no myspace. i seriously dont hitnk theres anything to do but ramble on and on about howbored i am................................................
theres nothinggggggg..........



unless i go and try to find more copper ridge shit but that gets boring really easily because its always the same articles..

ima go do something though
see yaaa
~Kayy

Oh Strangle Me With A Coat Hanger...

So. I made it through Friday alone with Beth, thank god. And I made it through the weekend. But before i get to the weekend, Fridays first.
So we are all very fortunate that Benjy was with me and BEth at lunch or else i just might've gotten in a bunch of trouble. Nonstop, do you know what I hear? Her talking abotu how "prom night's gonna be great" and "what do i do if he got a room"
seriously, I dont care. Go do what you do best, be a whore. And if i have to hear her bitch about how bad her life is swear i'll punch her in her face. I dont care whos there and who saw. I'll do it. But on the upside, i made it to the weekend. But unfortunately I couldnt go to Helens party because Kaila was stuck on the lake with her dad and grandmother and grandfather, leaving me stranded without a ride to Helens party. We had to know by one whether or not i had a ride and i didnt so i had to help pack and move for dad. And packing is lame. because...ok ill just tell you the story. So i went with dad as he met his nephew Glen and picked up a freezer. I stayed over by Glen's truck as they loaded the freezer and then we rode over to the new house out in strawberry plains. We were at Neal' landing off Ashville Hwy so it didnt take long to get there. And im in dad's truck with him listening to metallica as we lead Glen to the new house, the fridge (which is in the back of dads truck) flaps in the wind. Then we unload the freezer only to discover that dad and glen cant get it by themselves so dad calls uncle walter. Then we meet him over at Pappaw Chesneys old house aka the site where dad grew up and hes currently planning to build a house in the backyard. So Uncle Walter meets us adn we get a stove from the falling, decaying house and i play with Crystal's (shes my...cousin?.... i think) dogs, Blue and Daisy/Dixie (we never figuered out which one) and then found pot growing in the side yard. Interesting. And then we went back to the rental house and unloaded the stove and fridge. They got the fridge into the kitchen adn the stove in the kitchen adn ended up putting the freezer, with help from uncle walter, in the basement i think. And then we unloaded boxes, waited til the fridge settles then tried to get it to work adn it broke. so after dad muttering some very choice words we left and he threatened to let all hell loose on the company he had just bought the fridge from. i think he said the compressors broken. Then Sunday we went up to the lakehouse for ten hours and packed then we went to the house unloaded and came back. and i hit my hand many times, when we got home, Mason slammed my hand in the door and i made Eddiemuffinz for Helen to make up for missing her party. And now im sitting her reading about some idiot that successfully jumped with an exact copy of the parachute Leo Da Vinci created.

PAYERNE, Switzerland (AFP) - A 36-year-old Swiss amateur parachutist made a successful 650-metre (2,130-foot) drop Saturday using a replica of a parachute designed more than 500 years ago by Leonardo da Vinci.

see? kinda interesting. No doubt we'll be talking about that in ROTC. fun? i think not. Oh and speaking of fun. So theres this thing on facebook where you can "own" your friends. and i thought itd be funny to steal beth from tim and see how mad he got. And he got pretty mad and sent me a message saying "ill be your friend if you dont steal beth" and im like you can have her. its not like anyone really wants her" and he responded with "thats not really nice to say to be honest that was uncalled for" and im like yeah, so? Does it look like i care? no. not really buddy. And then when i stopped by their (beth tim Kirstyn) table to get the muffinz for helen Beth kinda waved and i just rolled my eyes and tim looked at me and omigod he was pissed. It was great. I really dont like him and i dont give a damn what he thinks.

but anyway. Im bored. theres like absolutely nothing to do. at all. and i've got another hour in here. Oh! i gotta look up something for Helen! She wanted me to look up on the twilight lexicon how many siblings Rosalie had when she was human. And it doesnt say on there about her human life that much. Which means i'll look it up when i get home. Helen said that Rosalie had two younger siblings but she couldnt remember whether it was two brothers or a brother and a sister. But i'll look it up for her. god im bored. Oh and Cauis aint gonna be in class tomorrow which sucks because i hate subs. They suck. oh and people in romeo and juliet need acting lessons
666
because
they seriously suck bad. Like leanns a better actress. and thats sad, like the crying parts, my god. HUgh Jackman does better! seriously! and helens convinced that the guy that played Tybalt (who cant act either) is Asher Fleming from Gilmore Girls. Im checking now.
Deans last name was Forester? uh didnt know that....
Babbette had a last name?!...
wasnt marty the naked guy?...
the pastor had a name?...really...
wow this is interesting but no asher yet...
found him!
Asher Fleming played by Michael York....click Michael York...scroll...god this kid was in alot....BY GOD HE DID! he was Tybalt! well he died anyway. well TYbalt did not Michael York. well maybe he did i dont know. but
OMIGAH!
thats....scary.
and apparently talent gets better with practice because in gilmore girls he was okay but when he played Tybalt, god he sucked. okay. Now what?
So, i guess being a porn star when your a disney kid is in now.
Miley cyrus joined Vanessa whore hudgens.
not shocking.
hey.
my ipod
is amazing!
"Not too late" three days grace is on.
OH!
So ...
guess what!
3 doors down is back1
Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they premiered ther new song
"its not my time"
on vh1 top 20 countdown this weekend. its great!
they found a new drummer since the old one went to Nickelback and so they got a new one.
im looking at their site now. ugh its annoying.
they've upgraded to flash...
theres nothing about the new drummer.
nothing. that sucks.
Okay thats it.
killing all of cms
bye!
~Kayy

I Shall Shank Thee and Shank Thee I Shall.

So. I officially love Romeo and Juliet. Simply for the conversations it sparks up. Like today we compared Tybalt's death to AJ (who has choosen to go by Alejandro Jose lol) Great Shanker. Yes, he has created a Great Shanker. He taped a piece of paper to the end of a pencil and says hes gonna shank somebody with it. And Speed said that he had a dream last night of AJ shanking someone with a toothbrush. It was great. And then we ate cookies and Krebs wasnt allowed to talk so Speed kept translating. It was great. Then when i was talking to Helen i said something about Hello Kitty and Krebs freaked, well as much as he was allowed to not being able to talk and everything, and him and Helen had a whole conversation about Hello Kitty without him speaking. it was hilarious. I think i like krebs better when he DOESNT talk. haha. So. Im bored now. I'm listening to my Ipod. I finally figured out how to add just the songs i want without deleting them all but they're all in alphabetical order by artist. Its weird. And then like I have two Bullet for my Valentine cds and the Posion one is first because, in alphabetical order, Poison comes before Scream Aim Fire. its weird. I also realized that it takes me forever to type alphabetical. Because i keep forgetting how to spell it. Im bored. oh so haha i shall tell you about my drill comp thing. So we did Inspection where i got counted off for my "sparkly purple" nail polish when i think its really just a shiny flesh color. Fine. its pale purple. but whatever. Smitty thankfully told me that i got a 93 because i guess he could see that i was worried bout my score. And then Sargent came around behind Colonel and Smitty, who by the way is right under Ashli who is the Squadron Commander. So Sargent came round and asked three questions. He asked what stance the element in front of me was at and i said parade rest and got it right. in drill what stance must the commander be at to call a command? Attention. Then the question i love the best. "You are in drill. You are at parade rest. What must occur before order arms?" and i know he was looking for come to attention but I said, with a huge smile "you must be called to attention, present arms, then order arms can properly be called." and hes like well yeah guess so. and moved on. And then we did the drill thing and i think we did better on the practice round. AND OMIGOD. the nerve he has! So Nikki came to watch right? And Nikki told me that before we even started Sargent told her "you know your sister cant march worth crap, right?" which i know i cant. I suck. I'll be the first to say it but he really didnt need to do that. it was uncalled for and unneccessary. And im killing beth. Not only was she high yesterday, both in uniform and in front of my sister who could tell, but also she ran into Taylor by accident and turned to me and says "I just grabbed his penis!" with my sister there! i mean seriously? and then she was being the hypocritical bitch she is and when this girl (i will not mention her name) fell doing the standard Thursady-I-Dont-want-to-wear-this-uniform-so-i'll-fake-sick routine, Beth, who does the same damn thing, got all bent out of shape and was all over her, "honey are you okay? stand up, careful sweetie," which just gives her the attention she wants, Beth goes "shes faking it" literally behind the girl's back. Seriously? And now, because everyone else except me and beth is going on the trip, me and beth are the only ROTCy people, and the only person i know and can sit with, has to sit together. ugh! and i forgot to get a lunch pass to the library so i cant escape to the library and i cant escape to the back gym because ROTC, including Colonel and Sargent, are leaving at 1:30 and we cant get permission to be back there. So that sucks and im stuck with her. And i know some people reading this are gonna be like big deal, thirty minutes with beth, but ou dont understand. thats thirty minutes litstening to her bitch constantly.
it sucks majorly. either i hear her bitch or talk about that damn prom. i'm gonna smack a bitch today. Except Jenn and Sarah6666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666
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will wanna watch. ^^note from James obviously^^
and Kirstyn will wanna smack a hoe too.
I might just do it though and just video tape it so that they can still see it.
I'd do it.
just wish i had that brace still. Thatd hurt.
yeah, i got off topic. i was gonna talk about shanking people. but that didnt work.
alright well ima go check up on Kansas.
~KAyy ♥

SO.......

you are going to have to forgive me. I hurt my wrist yesterday and I have to wear a brace on my left arm and its really hard to type. though im faster if i type one handed instead of just trying to type with both. lol. ooohhhh!!!!!!!! my favorite song in the entire world just came on my ipod!!! oh yayness! It's Enter Sandman by Metallica. I've known everyword to this song since i was like 5! i love it!!!!! dude. Metallica kicks ass. James Hetfields amazing. So, I read my comments earlier adn discovered a very good suggestion, made by Kansas, to post my stories up as drafts on blogs. Well theres a slight problem with that. I have major paranoia that someone will steal my stories before i get it published so if i talk to you about the basis of my stories i must really trust you and if you get to actually read them, then i would trust you with my life. so. but it was a good idea, though, Kansas. Just too much paranoia for me. Dude this songs amazing. ugh, yahoo mails being a gaytard. OOH! speaking of gaytard--ROTCy! i know most say this is mean or bad to say, i've even heard it was unpatriotic. BUt i absolutely hate that uniform i have to wear for ROTC. and finally! the last time i have to wear it is May 1!!!!!!!!!! Okay so i'm killing Yahoo. Like officially. oh so speaking of killing people. Beth got the shit smacked out of her this morning. she was talking yesterday about how she "rededicated her life to the Lord" and all this and yeah, im happy for her and everything, but then she turns around and starts the bad cussing thing where everything every two seconds is something MTV would even frown upon. okay? (omigod. nsync just came on my ipod. oh jesus.) and then so this morning she was apparently doing that again and said "fuck" and Sarah slapped the crap out of her! it was great! and , ooh, now its break stuff by limp bizkit. theyre pretty good too. BEtter than nsync anyway, haha. Dude so Kaila is like officially my bestestestestestestestestestestest friend ever! (sorry helen, but you're the bestestestestestestestestestest friend, just one below Ka-ia) So i had this like 30 page mix cd list that i wanted. ANd of course i cut it down to like five pages, from removing what i already had and things that i didnt like anymore and i gave Kaila cds and she made me the cds!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!! except, im filling up another list for her. hehe. And of course i told her take her time, itd be perfectly fine if she didnt have them all done before my birthday in JUly. and shes already made me Mix Cds A-I! haha. Okay so i ave decided that today hasnt been a good day at all. like at all. first this whole brace issue, which technically started last night then this morning i got in trouble because i pushed leann and as of right now i cant go to Helens party and that sucks. but im going to try to explain to mom i have to go to helens last birthday party. and i have to wear my jacket because if i roll the sleeves up like i normally do, you see the brace and it looks funny. i might roll them up in ROTC because i know in there im not the only kid with something funky wrong with their wrist because Long broke his wrist or somwthing like that so hes in a cast. and i can hear the jokes about how i copied him or somethign and im ready to slap beth if she says one thing wrong to me and itll hurt like hell too because of the brace. and im sick of everything going wrong, and im sick of people not saying what they want to say when they want to say it and i want to punch a wall or something and ill do it i swear i will but if i do i could possibly break my hand because of the brace but thats just a yay there too. and seriously can people be any dumber? i mean seriously? when you want to do somsthing when you want to say something just fucking do/say it! i mean what the hell are you waiting for? lightening to strike you as a sign to tell you what i've been trying to tell you all along? Let me tell you something, buddy, thats not going to happen! okay? and another thing, how come I'm always blamed for something? leann runs into the pole liek the dumbass she is, goes crying and automatically, before anythings said i hear "KAYLA! WHAT DID YOU DO?!" how come everything is automaticlaly my fault?
i didnt do shit and its my fault. Leann and Chelsie can do whatever the hell they please, i ask to do something and get yelled at! but maybe thats part of it, maybe they just sneak around to doing something and just happen to get away with it. maybe thats it. and i finally gave in and rolled my sleeves up. right now i dont give a fuck what anyone thinks which is how it should be anyway but is it ever? no. Society rules over all in the end. someone should tell society to go to hell because they're not always right. as a matter of fact, most of the time, society is dead wrong. or they're trying to make everybody into clones of one another. I mean look around! the "hottest trends" is what everyone goes by. i mean its like were all just a bunch of fucking plastics. and i know this is a huge rant and i didnt warn you about it but i didnt think it'd turn around into a rant. and im just going to shut up and retreat to the land of GEorge.

Well then......

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Cuz you don't understand I do what I can
Sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never wanna say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored
Time won't tell
Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored

~Faint~Linkin Park~

So Mucho Thanks to HElen for putting up a guest blog. And Mucho Thanks to Kansas for the Music HElp and for the comments on "Adeventure?"! See but the problems with just going is the seven months in juvie for "running away" (or i would be in Japan by now) and then the fact that i have no legal means of trnsportation yet. Or else believe me, I'd be gone. And if I could, I'd be in Japan by now too. What? You dont know about Japan? Oh really..... okay so....a friend of mine (k so a little bit more than a friend, bite me.)....James offered to take me on a trip with him. And I told him i wanted to go to Japan. Why Japan? I dont know, the school was hosting a contest for people to go to Japan and I said I wanted to go to Japan so theres Japan. And thats been the inside joke for the past, what?, month. month and a half. SOmething like that. SO whenever im sick of the house or parents, you say your ready for Japan. And in all reality, if i could go to Japan with James, I swear i would go. LIke if it came down to meeting the real Edward Cullen and being with Edward forever, and going to Japan with James for a day, then Tokyo here I come! (Tokyo is in Japan, right?) Yeah pathetic, but get over it. WHo said life was perfect. Oh and speaking about life being shitty, I have no cell phone again. And then i got pissed so i threw the phone at the wall. And then punched the wall and now my hand hurts. Oh and speaking of hands, my flight commander in ROTC broke his hand. How? I dont know, but Sheldon broke his hand. Haha to him. And speaking of ROTC, BETH. So i havent informed you of the latest drama with her. Lets get play a little game of Catch Up so you are well informed..
Friday during class, about halfway through, she passes me a note. See below.
Beth: R U Mad at Me?
Me: No Never
Beth: What'd i do?
ME: Same thing You always do
Beth: What do i do?
Me: You're being a hypocritical whore looking for attention
Then she dramatically huffs and puff as she balls up the piece of paper and she LEAVES SCHOOL i pissed her off so bad. Hahahahahahahaha. And to make it better, i'm causing problems between her and her boyfriend Tim. So Tim goes to Powell and come sto KHS for Byington classes. And i started a rumor at Powell that Beth was cheating on him, and then told everyone at Karns, Tim was cheating on her. Which turned out to be true. haha. And so she was pissed at that when the note occured so haha i win. and then this morning, when i walked past her classroom she gave me this evil stare. It was amazing. hha.
Oh and i lost my binder this morning, so that sucks. I left it outside then havent seen it since. Helens textin everyone for me to see if someone grabbed it. And Sarah's looking for it too. So yeah.
And what sucks even more is i think im sick. either that or my allergies are acting up really bad. Either way it sucks. And i think i've gone mentally insane. I keep seeing things. Like last night, i wa strying to go to sleep and i kept seeing really flashy lights, like s strobe light on high. It was weird. then today. I keep seeing colors oout of the corner of my eyes. Like my white Hollister jacket looks purple right now. And this morning it looked pink. yeah weird. And then for some really odd reason i keep seeing my house on fire. Its WEIRD. And this morning, omigah. Apparently mom woke me up at 6. And i sat up and yelled at her. Then I went back to sleep and didnt wake up until 6:50 where she scremaed and yelled at me. ANd i thought i had already gotten up and showered. and for some reason, i wanted to tell her its okay, i wrote my poem. I'm like wtf? Does zyrtec do that to your brain, i dont think so! And now im looking at this optical illusions on brainbashers.com and whoa, its tripptacular. And most of them just confirm my "insane" suspcions. ahhh! oksy fo sho go to this. its amazing. wowzers....its giving me a headache. thank god. only fifteen more minutes in this godforsaken class. UGH!!!!! i just realized i have PT next!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK! I dont want PT! and this song is depressing. I love it though. It's posted below. And i have to ride home to Mimi's and i dont want to do that! that means I have to sit with BEth! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And i cant work on From Ebony to Ivory or anything because i lost my binder! this day just gets worse and worse huh? And Lets see now is "Fathers Son" by 3 Doors Down. Pretty good. Not the best song ever. I say thats "Say ANything" well best thats played this class period. ugh! Okay I am off to read these puzzzles on brainbashers.com
enjoy my song below

Here I am on the phone again and...
Awkward silences on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now ) all I feel (all I feel) is the pain of fighting starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that time changes,
best friends can become strangers
But I don't want that, no not for you
If you just stay with me we can make it through
So here we are again the same old argument
Now I'm wondering if things will ever change
When will you laugh again,
laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise 'til 3 am,
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time,
After time, after time

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

I'm fallin...
I'm fallin...
I'm fallin down

Down, down,down...

Don't say a word,
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away,
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Don't say a word, (Please don't leave...)
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away, (Please don't leave...)
I know you wanna stay
If you just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
~Say Anything~Good Charlotte~

Useless Babbling.

And to start us out....My Obsession-Skillet

Your touch, your ways
Leave me dumb without reason
Your love, my cage
My prison so pleasing
I spend my days
Tangled in thoughts of you
Stuck in this place
Resigned to be your fool

I thirst no longer
Drenching my soul
Pour out like water

You’re my only infatuation
Don’t leave me stranded
In my obsession
My purpose, my possession
Live and die in my obsession
My obsession

Oh

Come down to me
Don’t ever say that it’s over
I kiss your feet
Worship the air you breathe
Your love, my gift
You go and I will follow
My dream, my wish
Don’t leave me here so helpless

I thirst no longer
Drenching my soul
Pour out like water

You’re my only infatuation
Don’t leave me stranded
In my obsession
My purpose, my possession
Live and die in my obsession
My obsession

Am I a lunatic?
I’m going crazy
For just a word from
For just a touch from you

And I’m exploding like chemicals
I’m going crazy, can’t get enough (2x)

I thirst no longer
I thirst, yeah
Drenching my soul
Drenching, oh

I thirst no longer
Drenching my soul
Pour out like water

You’re my only infatuation
Don’t leave me stranded
In my obsession
My purpose, my possession
Live and die in my obsession
Oh, oh, oh, my obsession
Oh, oh, oh, my obsession
My obsession

So has anyone else noticed my strange obsession with posting songs that mean one thing i twist em to mean something totally differnt? i love it. Dude, i am so psyched! I got an out-of-state reader too! Hi Kansas!!!! Oh and about the fake-accent things, Kansas pointed out that theirs nothing wrong with it, except for the fact that Beth does it constantly and no one can make her shut up! And I am teaching Beth how to cuss right because she cant do it. She thinks that every other word must be a cuss word and the cuss words must alternate between "fuck" and "shit" and its annoying. I have told her im not listening to her until she learns to cuss correctly. Does anyone remember in I, Robot where Shia LeBouf played Farber, and he couldnt cuss?

NS5 Robots: You have been deemed hazardous. Will you comply?
Farber: You can kiss my ass, metal dick!

Farber: I got this fine-ass little yummy. I mean she is complete and agreeable, ass-hot spankable, Spoon.
Detective Del Spooner: What does that even mean?
Farber: You know what that means, now stop barracadin' and give me the damn-ass keys!
Detective Del Spooner: First off, stop cussing, cause you're not good at it.
Farber: Well at least give me ten for the bus, man. I been there for you.
Detective Del Spooner: Go home.
Farber: Okay. That's strike one, Spoon. That's strike one!


Farber: Oh, Mother-damn, she just shot at you with her eyes closed, Spoon.
Detective Del Spooner: Hey! Did you just shoot at me with your eyes closed?
Susan Calvin: Well it worked, didn't it?
Farber: Spoon, she is shit-hot, man. You gotta put in a good word for me.
Detective Del Spooner: Stop cussing!
Farber: And go home, I gotcha.
Detective Del Spooner: [to Calvin] *Aim* and fire.

Farber cusses better than Beth does, mmkay? this kid needs help. Seriously because, no. Like direct quote from Beth. "Mother fuck, why the fuck di dyou not let me fucking have some shit" talking about PURFUME, what the bloody hell! (ok, Kansas, so taking some accents is pretty cool but not constantly). Gah, Bored Muchly ™
So im stealing helens idea and im makin a list thingy too because browsing internet and useless babbling in a boring type format==sucks. K? So heres we go
--classes suck this semester.
--no really
--English is okay though
--AJ's pretty funny
--Krebs is annoying though
--2nd is this
--Blogging
--And nothing else
--Kinda boring.
--third is ROCTy
--No commment, self explainatory.
--I want coffee
--bad.
--and cookies
--my arm hurts
--I ran into another pole today
--it hurt.
--I think i've formed another bruise.
--I need to talk to Helen about creating an ad for my site too
--help me remember
--cms sucks
--i need new songs on my ipod
--Any suggestions, Kansas?
--bored muchly ™
-- Verdammen Sie es zu Hölle
--Lets go get the stripper at Walmart. lol
--Lets go to Japan
--No really
--I'll do it
--Bored.
--this class sucks
--i have another hour in here
--Kill me no
--no wait, dont
--Lets go watch Elmo
--Or Dora
--Either works
--Whats with everyone wearing kid show backpacks and stuff? its weird
--haha I still have Cheetos from the lockin
--on February 8, 2008
--they're pretty good
--Jeff Foxworthy: This one goes out to the younger ones out there. If your mother still drives you to school, you ain't no "gangsta", pull your pants up! Your back pockets should not be behind your knees!
--Haha
--u should check out kaila's blog
--i post on there occasionally.
-- ordinarily-unperfect.blogspot.com
--dude
--boredom.
--im gettin off.
--see ya

--Kayy

Holiday.....

i figured i would start on a happy note for us so, hereya go. "Those Nights" by Skillet.

I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd

[Chorus:]
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the tv light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but her
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd

[Bridge:]
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us

I remember when
We used to laugh
And now I wish those nights would last

CMS does suck ass. i mean theres nothing really to do except that stupid plato shit that i wont have to do for a while since im ahead of everyone again. And then theres nothing but listen to our ipod, blog, and plot murders. I have one mapped out already (dont worry im not gonna murder anyone) lol. And now im trying to plot the worst thing ever for beth. See she is starting to annoy the shit out of me. She thinks that Everyone is a slut like her and says one minute "i love my boyfriend i wouldnt do anything to hurt him" and then the next minute, shes all over someone and calling the ROCTy guys "her boys." I told her i dont know how many times she does not own them!!! like Tony went to get a snack and Beths like did i say you could? i was like okay seriously you do not own them. Quit it! and then shes all over Cunningham and Evans and TOny and saying "oh i love tim" bullshit whore. then i called her a whore twice yesterday and not good. And shes very loud and annoying. Like for some reason she likes to talk in different accents. Like if everythings okay she talks very proper. then when shes pissed, she speaks in a british accent. and apparently when shes telling trucker tales and about adventures when she rode with her dad in his truck she talks in such a SOuthern godawful hick accent it makes Paula Deen seem like a damn Yankee. And then she makes this really weird strange sounds so loud the whole bus shuts up. Seriously? is that neccessary? So i was complaining today to HElen James and Rhiannon about how she was starting to get on my nerves and we came to the conclusion that i cant kick her ass and james made a very cryptic remark, "thats why you need a boyfriend." sorry buddy i can take care of myself thanks though. whatever though, and my arm has been killing me for the past ever. We played a really violent game in pt monday and i told everyone that if your gonna injure me leave a mark. Do they listen? no. so for the past few days i've been complain and bitchin over the fact that i have four (from what i can tell) bruises on the bone of my upper arm and it hurts and i just look like a reject comliaing about a nonexistant bruise. But it hurts. like i cant move it without it hurting. it sucks. and lets see what else.... oh so me and Sarah and Brandon snuck into the theatre earlier. Bryan was in there playing piano and we wanted to hear him so we went to the stage door and got inside and shut the door. We were just at the edge of the curtain when all the lights snapped on all of a sudden and we freaked and ran out. It turned out that Mr. Ellington heard Bryan playing, decided to see what was going on and Bryan got in trouble. it was great though. Pretty fun. ANd then what else...oh i think ima convicne mom to let me drive again. oh and speaking of driving, you havent heard the whole designated driver theory. so i was supposed to be Nikki's (my older sister) designated driver for her 21st birthday. Someone was going to watch Nikki's son Mason, whos two, and then i was gonna drive Nikki and Mom to COtton Eyed joes and wait outside while they got trashed. But then Nikki realized i would only have my permit then, so i pointed out that someone would supervise (mom and nikki would be there right?) and then she lovingly called me a 'tard and reminded me that the law doesnt count if the supervisor is "drunk off their ass" and So after convinceing her we wouldnt be pulled over because i have "excellent" driving skills, not even 24 hours later she calls and says she pregnant so there is no major bash where shes getting trashed and im the designated driver. Bummer. But that means that for her 22nd birthdday i'll have my license!!! yay!!! sooo i wont have to illegally drive. whoot whoot! ugh, my arm hurts. I just hit it on the desk. Verdammen Sie es zu Hölle (ooh, havent seen that in awhile!)My arm hurts!!! oh and i have a visible bruise on my forearm too. its like a purpleish color. I'm not sure if thats good or not but i know i rebruised it because it was healing and now its all purple again.
So
i'm gonna get off.
heres another song for you.
"Holiday" by Boys LIke Girls.
Makes me wanna go to Japan....

~kayy

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?
It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday (need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase (set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight