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you are going to have to forgive me. I hurt my wrist yesterday and I have to wear a brace on my left arm and its really hard to type. though im faster if i type one handed instead of just trying to type with both. lol. ooohhhh!!!!!!!! my favorite song in the entire world just came on my ipod!!! oh yayness! It's Enter Sandman by Metallica. I've known everyword to this song since i was like 5! i love it!!!!! dude. Metallica kicks ass. James Hetfields amazing. So, I read my comments earlier adn discovered a very good suggestion, made by Kansas, to post my stories up as drafts on blogs. Well theres a slight problem with that. I have major paranoia that someone will steal my stories before i get it published so if i talk to you about the basis of my stories i must really trust you and if you get to actually read them, then i would trust you with my life. so. but it was a good idea, though, Kansas. Just too much paranoia for me. Dude this songs amazing. ugh, yahoo mails being a gaytard. OOH! speaking of gaytard--ROTCy! i know most say this is mean or bad to say, i've even heard it was unpatriotic. BUt i absolutely hate that uniform i have to wear for ROTC. and finally! the last time i have to wear it is May 1!!!!!!!!!! Okay so i'm killing Yahoo. Like officially. oh so speaking of killing people. Beth got the shit smacked out of her this morning. she was talking yesterday about how she "rededicated her life to the Lord" and all this and yeah, im happy for her and everything, but then she turns around and starts the bad cussing thing where everything every two seconds is something MTV would even frown upon. okay? (omigod. nsync just came on my ipod. oh jesus.) and then so this morning she was apparently doing that again and said "fuck" and Sarah slapped the crap out of her! it was great! and , ooh, now its break stuff by limp bizkit. theyre pretty good too. BEtter than nsync anyway, haha. Dude so Kaila is like officially my bestestestestestestestestestestest friend ever! (sorry helen, but you're the bestestestestestestestestestest friend, just one below Ka-ia) So i had this like 30 page mix cd list that i wanted. ANd of course i cut it down to like five pages, from removing what i already had and things that i didnt like anymore and i gave Kaila cds and she made me the cds!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!! except, im filling up another list for her. hehe. And of course i told her take her time, itd be perfectly fine if she didnt have them all done before my birthday in JUly. and shes already made me Mix Cds A-I! haha. Okay so i ave decided that today hasnt been a good day at all. like at all. first this whole brace issue, which technically started last night then this morning i got in trouble because i pushed leann and as of right now i cant go to Helens party and that sucks. but im going to try to explain to mom i have to go to helens last birthday party. and i have to wear my jacket because if i roll the sleeves up like i normally do, you see the brace and it looks funny. i might roll them up in ROTC because i know in there im not the only kid with something funky wrong with their wrist because Long broke his wrist or somwthing like that so hes in a cast. and i can hear the jokes about how i copied him or somethign and im ready to slap beth if she says one thing wrong to me and itll hurt like hell too because of the brace. and im sick of everything going wrong, and im sick of people not saying what they want to say when they want to say it and i want to punch a wall or something and ill do it i swear i will but if i do i could possibly break my hand because of the brace but thats just a yay there too. and seriously can people be any dumber? i mean seriously? when you want to do somsthing when you want to say something just fucking do/say it! i mean what the hell are you waiting for? lightening to strike you as a sign to tell you what i've been trying to tell you all along? Let me tell you something, buddy, thats not going to happen! okay? and another thing, how come I'm always blamed for something? leann runs into the pole liek the dumbass she is, goes crying and automatically, before anythings said i hear "KAYLA! WHAT DID YOU DO?!" how come everything is automaticlaly my fault?
i didnt do shit and its my fault. Leann and Chelsie can do whatever the hell they please, i ask to do something and get yelled at! but maybe thats part of it, maybe they just sneak around to doing something and just happen to get away with it. maybe thats it. and i finally gave in and rolled my sleeves up. right now i dont give a fuck what anyone thinks which is how it should be anyway but is it ever? no. Society rules over all in the end. someone should tell society to go to hell because they're not always right. as a matter of fact, most of the time, society is dead wrong. or they're trying to make everybody into clones of one another. I mean look around! the "hottest trends" is what everyone goes by. i mean its like were all just a bunch of fucking plastics. and i know this is a huge rant and i didnt warn you about it but i didnt think it'd turn around into a rant. and im just going to shut up and retreat to the land of GEorge.