The Last Post--EVER

Yes, you read correctly. This will be my last post. ever.
Its been fun and all but too much involved this blog and its all over now. but here you go.
i'll give you one last song.
Enjoy

Be good, peace and love
~Kayy~

No time for goodbye he said
As he faded away
Don't put your life in someone's hands
Their bound to steal it away
Don't hide your mistakes
'Cause they'll find you, burn you
Then he said

If you want to get out alive
Hold on for your life
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for your life

This is my last time she said
As she faded away
It's hard to imagine
But one day you'll end up like me
Then she said

If you want to get out alive
Hold on for your life
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for your life (Life)
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for your life

If I stay it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for your life
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for

If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Hold on for:

If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If I stay, it won't be long
Till I'm burning on the inside
If I go, if I go

Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside
~Get Out Alive~ Three Days Grace

GOOD BYE TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HELPED OR READ THIS BLOG. THANKYOU

~Kayy

Long Summer

Sorry i havent been on in awhile. There's been alot going on to say in the least. Long story short, i've babysat alot, saw "What Happens in Vegas" got into fights with my stepdad, rarely talked to my boyfriend, haven't actually seen him since school let out. And today we swam from 10 to 3 and then chilled in the sun waiting for mom and tomorrow we're going to the gym. fun. well, ima get offa here and chill somewhere because honestly i dont feel like blogging.
bye

~Kayla

FIND HOBBLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE NEED TO FIND HOBBLES!
WE HAVE A START: WE'VE LOCATED HIS MYSPACE!
MYSPACE.COM/HOBBLESTHEHOBO

ADD HIM!

Babysitting the Munchkins this Week, the Twerps Next.

Sound fun? No. of ocurse not. Geez, everyone gets to do interesting stuff except me. like James is at the beach as we speak, type, wahtever. Kaila gets to workout at St. Mary's and go to the lake which i consider pretty damn exciting compared to my summer. Helen went to the lake hosue and Indiana Jones. And Kansas, last i heard, got to go to a writer's conference. You know what I'm doing? babysitting. This week at dad's im stuck at home with Leann and Sarah babysitting. Next week you know what Kayla's doing? At home with Leann and Chelsie. and the only break im gonna get all summer from being stuck at home babysitting is going to Jacksonville NC to the beach with my sister. and then its gonna be "yeah you guys can do this just watcht he girls" "kayla watch mason" "watch this person and this person" adn im not going to get a break from babysitting. But you know what i find rather shitty? Nikki used to babysit me and leann in the summer which i guess you could turn into an argument of "its you turn" type thing. Except, NIkki had a car and got to go places after someone got home. I on the other hand do not even have my permit yet (which leads to another argument). That i can deal with because shes six years older than me while im only three older than leann so of course nikki had her license. But what i dont like is Nikki got paid. Mom says its because Nikki did chores too while she babysat which in truth is me and leann did the chores. Btu you know what i do when i babyist leann, and now Chelsie? I clean. I clean the kitchen, do laundry, my room, i clean. aand when cleanning is done, i work on either my stories or getting my reading done. Im productive! they on the other hand sit on their asses. And you know who gets paid? not Kayla! and i know now someones gonna try to argue something abotu the economy. but i dont care right now about the economy. i could care less about the whole we cant give you money to do this sorry. you know what i would take payment as in like yeah you can have so and so come over. yeah you can go to the FREE concert yeah you can hang out at the mall yeah you can go tubing with your friends. all of which require no money. but you know what i get NO. NO. you cant do this because you didnt do this or didnt do this right.

okay when i got on here i intended to end my blog but you know ima keep it going for awhile, see how things evolve.
i gotta go both of them are awake now.
back to my life of unfairness.
fun.
~Kayy

oh adn Kansas, you said you wanted to read something of mine? I have a story up on fanfiction.net "Tears Dont Fall" you'll have to read the Twiligth Saga or at leasthave a basic idea of the story though.

I'm invading your house

well, Kaila's house anyway.
Because lucky me gets to babysit the twerps all summer. Which is hell because my only "vacation" is going to be stuck with my sister in NC (aka the middle of NOWHERE [well except for Wallace]) sleeping on the couch and hearing her bitch about how i have to watch mason because i'm guessing shes too damn lazy to do it herself. That and on fourth of july weekend im being dragged to Topsail, NC (the only decent beach they have) and staying at NIkki's again. Oh and dad's for two straight weeks. and suppposedly im going to StarJam on the 4th which would be amazing because both Boys Like Girls and Good Charlotte are going to be there and me and Helen's made plans to stalk them. And we're killing Nicole Richie and Paris Hilton who will no doubt be there because their boyfriends Joel adn Benji will be there. Fun fun fun. Right?
No.
not really. and im supposed to be going to Dollywood with a thousand people and i've set goals to finish reading all my books sitting on top of my stereo speakers that have yet to be read, which are listed below from memory (and spelling may be off):
Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde
War of the Worlds
Prince and the Pauper
october Sky
Diary of a Teenage Girl
Red Badge of COurage
wuthering heights
and i know there's more than that. There is. And i have to do English summer assignment--fun. which is reading Lord of the Flies which sounds absolutely wonderful don't you think?!
*scowl*
and i set a deadline a long time ago i was going to have my book finished by the end of sophomore year. it was going to be done, ready to be sent off to the publishers. And I had it basically done at the end of Decemeber, i was proud. Until Nathaniel pointed out to me one day that the title was really kind of lame. And so i went out on a quest (for the Holy Grail) no, went on a quest to find (the holy grail!)
NO! I WENT ON A QUEST TO FIND A NEW TITLE!
there.
anyway. so in this quest (you say one thing about the holy grail i will kick your ass) (ok.) in this quest...*no voice*...in this quest i decided rather than plan out sequels when im not even sure about the first one succeeding, then i would mush all the plans together and publish them as one. which i named From Ebony to Ivory. Much better than Devil's Servant in my personal opionion. And the renaming struck up more ideas. Which caused me to break down my original story and now I am reconstructing the entire thing.
fun.
so in addition to the rest of my already busy summer, i was planning on working on my story to meet the deadline i had set up back in, what?, seventh grade? Yeah. thats how long i've been working on this damn story.
And in the meantime, i'm trying to get a job, hopefully the one over at Brusters, so i can save money to buy myself a new computer because hte one i have now i a piece of shit. It's Kaila's old one that she had before her mom bought her one and before that it was her grandpa's. All in all its older than shit, falling apart and if you so much as come within an inch of a certain cord, the whole thing fucks up. Therfore, i want, no scratch that, i very much need this new computer i am saving up for. I need one with a USB too, which oh by the way my current one doesnt have. yeah. totally lame.
oh and i have to find a way to get my Dollywood pass renewed.
and do chores while babysitting the munchkins.
and work on my fanfiction story or else im going to be killed by hundreds of fellow twilighters.
and i need to save for BReaking Dawn when it comes out.
my summer's pretty jampacked. except we all now that when summer does come, i'll be complaining its too boring or something. either that or i never have time to rest. probably a mixture of both.
lamee.
and HElen informed me today that shes going to try to have a bunch of bonfires this summer which results to the fact i'll be hanging out at the bonfires alot.
and trying to squeeze in time for all my friends.
which will be difficult, and the only time i'll have to blog is like a few seconds every so often.
which is kinda suckish for you guys but oh well u'll get over it.
and todays just overall not a good day.
im sick.
BETHS BACK
and i had finals today and schools coming to a close and all this is kinda depressing.
but oh well.
and normally i would leave you guys on that depressing note but i have nothign else to do so might as well keep typing. about what? who knows.
i have a lot to do this summer.
a bunch to do.
oh well.
ok now im leaving you.
bye

~Kayy

666

is awesome

Ibky

Ibky is my new word. I have no idea what the hell it means but i love it. Ibky. Everythingis so ibky.
Tehe.
it works
so i dont even want to blog right now but whatev, i figured i'd tell u guys about ibky...
im gonna go play my imdb scavenger hunt
bye

back.
i found ibky on there.
yeah still working on the meaning there.
its a mystery word like parabola.
well theres a mathamatical meaning to parabola but thats not the Algbera class meaning
kinda like 44 pi magic
but...not.
so we've decided that the movie Animal Farm is nothing but 44 pi magicness.
oh and we're making Caius a birthday cake and buying him Twilight. Helen's making the cake and we're writing something about either bacon or breakfast tacos on there.
idk which yet
probably "Thanks for not turning us into Breakfast Tacos!" or something.
idk yet
i've decided that school officially sucks.
okay so i decided it a long time ago but still
three and a half and a half more days left--thank God.
okay. bored.
what do i want to do? check imdb
see ya.
again

So the Beatles were all vampires/werewolves.

haha So Helen's convinced that the Beatles are Jesus-Jesus was a vampire/werewolf therefore Beatles=vampires/werewolves

haha im rading imdb.com and they're talkign about one time in filming some chick took an umbrella to Rob and hes like "its not even fuckin raingin!" and then people made icons and they're great.

well ima go look for em.
ill post them when i find them.

~Kayy

Stolen from Helen

I took that test she has on hers that she stole from Rhiannon. Read and Enjoy

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion |||||||||| 38%
Stability |||||| 26%
Orderliness |||||| 26%
Accommodation |||||||||| 38%
Interdependence |||||||||| 36%
Intellectual |||||||||| 38%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70%
Artistic |||||||||||||| 56%
Religious |||||| 23%
Hedonism |||||||||||| 50%
Materialism |||||||||||| 43%
Narcissism |||| 16%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Humanitarian |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 63%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43%
Romantic |||||||||||| 43%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 50%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency |||||||||||| 50%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 63%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Individuality |||||||||||| 43%
Sexuality |||||||||||| 43%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 63%
Family drive |||||||||||| 50%
Physical Activity |||||| 30%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 50%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 63%
Vanity |||||| 23%
Honor |||||||||| 36%
Thriftiness |||||||||| 36%


Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.


trait snapshot:

messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer


well isnt that a load of emoness?

Once One Begins To Roll, One Becomes a Burrito

Yeah i meant to post the blog yesterday with that title but forgots so i decided to post it today. Cauis said it yesterday anyway.
oh we made brownies last night, except i didnt eat any. i might tonight. idk.
oh and i joined the lexicon boards and i'll probably hang out there tomorrow since the imdb boards are going to be closed tomorrow. yeah i know it sucks. ugh the imdb boards are really inactive today.
i hate when they do that. and the lexicon's board is boring. i should probably do my research paper but thats boring. oh yeah i decided to do the Quiluete tribe as my research paper because i got curious if the werewolf legends are true and they are, government recognized, baby!
oh..
my..
flippin Carlisle!
oh you kidding me! no! that was MY uber cool name!
apparently some chick on Dancing with the Stars is "Marrisa Jaret somethingorother" anyway, JARET's mine!
well there goess my whole day, some whore has my favorite name ever! and when the book comes out everyones gonna think its named after her! that bitch!
ugh!
well there goes my good day!
first the boards inactive
then this?!
Jaret's mine!
*whiny pathetic voice* NO! he's miiinnnneee!
*normal* this day just sucks.
oh and just to make it worse, i jsut remembered im going to my dads this weekend for the fourth weekend in a row!
i love my dad and everything but seriously? is this neccessary?
i do have a life outside the house and school walls ya know.
ugh and the boards are boring.
and idk
ok ima go do something else

see ya

~Kayy

Jesus was A Vampire!

haha look what i found on imdb.com

im just posting the thread

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Jesus was a vamp

by twilighted 5 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 02:17:43) Ignore this User | Report Abuse

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we all know vampire were around in those years known as BC. In this time aro, marcus and cauis were carefully constructing their warm and loving family that would later become known as the volturi.

fast forward a few years later, and a lovely lady known as Mary claims she fell pregnant without having sex, a similar thing happened between JD and Kim on the tv show scrubs, although unlike on scrubs mary didnt want to admit she was jerking josephs gherkin. Instead she decided to claim an imaculet conception, with God becoming the father.

On December 25th a boy named Jesus was born. Being the alleged son of God (paternity tests weren't around at this time) was tough on him, and many people formed mean hate clubs against him. then the unthinkable happen, a pilot wanted jesus executed on the cross!

aro, marcus and cauis saw jesus' potential and relised he must be changed. Before he was put on the cross aro bit jesus and injected him with his venom, as jesus went up on the cross he yelled "i thirst!". believers brought him sponges soaked in water on a stick and pushed them up towards his mouth, little did they know he was referring to blood.

After hiding out in a cave for 3 days jesus got kinda bored, as you would, and decided to leave. because of his new incredible vampire strength he was able to easily push the boulder away and run free to live a vampire life.

:)

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by mcleods_daughters_obsess 5 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 02:22:18) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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I lol'd at the title

Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right Cullenism - Our New Religion T~O 203

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by isobellamagpie89 5 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 02:23:47) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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I lol'd at the amount of time this must have taken!



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by mcleods_daughters_obsess 5 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 02:26:04) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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I lol'd at lots of things

Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right Cullenism - Our New Religion T~O 203

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by Bella_Swan 4 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 03:29:05) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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Hahaha He really was a vampire!

Married to: Serena, Sarah, Alexandra & Morigyn
T~O Destined = <3
AUS~TFC-Kim
NCDCBFC

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by cbtousley 4 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 03:30:26) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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Ah, it all makes sense now!


T~O #194
Rob/Peter's Mafia-The Pooper Scooper-Makin' it hit the fan.

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by isobellamagpie89 4 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 03:30:35) Ignore this User | Report Abuse

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i know i lol'd but i am actually disgusted with this kind of blasphemy.
WWJD (What would Jasper Do).

* NOT WRITTEN BY ME MY "FRIENDS" ARE NOOOBS*





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by Bella_Swan 4 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 03:32:26) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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Jasper would probably laugh too, he's a vampire, he wouldn't really care for religious meanings anymore. The only one who seems to really care is Carlisle, all because of his Daddy.

Married to: Serena, Sarah, Alexandra & Morigyn
T~O Destined = <3
AUS~TFC-Kim
NCDCBFC

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by isobellamagpie89 4 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 04:02:54) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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Jesus did manage to move that massive rock from in front... and pretty sure he "appeared pale" to people on the walky thing he did later....

*looks around for jesus today* HIIIIIII JESUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS





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by CharmingBexi 4 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 04:12:45) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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I cant wait to tell my RE teacher this one!

UK~TFC
Cullenism: My religion
[BL][T~O][R~M][NCDCBFC]
CULLEN MEN

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by emoTWiLiGHT 3 hours ago (Tue May 13 2008 04:27:20) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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Nice story.
It's not true, but very creative. :)

i LOVE EDWARD CULLEN!
T~NM~E32
Twilaholic65
T~O922
[penguin]
BITE ME CULLEN ;] UK~TFC

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by twilighted 18 minutes ago (Tue May 13 2008 07:55:28) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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it is true!! how could you say its not true? all the signs are there!

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by Resilient_Aura7689 4 minutes ago (Tue May 13 2008 08:09:51) Ignore this User | Report Abuse


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OP, you just made my day worth while. hahaha.

--Devin
"She ... sees... feels... things differently.. I wish I had never seen her face"
Team Switzerland

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by kesslina-twin 32 seconds ago (Tue May 13 2008 08:13:19)


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haha, nice
Jesus was a vampire, thats how it all was.
the end/

~Bella Kayy

btw Bella Kayy/kesslina-twin is me

And Then We All Agreed Krebs Should Be Fed to The Talking Pig

okay, so not really but its a thought.
too bad the pig died and everyone had over 50 pounds of bacon.
yeah you probably have no idea what I'm talking about. We watched Animal Farm in English and laughed at it the whole time because AJ kept whispering things like "oh no!" "I'm scared!" "That hoe..." "Oh he's a dick..." it was entertaining;. And then when the giant pig died Krebs is like "everything's better with bacon..." which is what his shirt said yesterday and everyone joked around about it. and then Cauis is all like "no, that was yesterday." your shirt says nothing about bacon today" and hes like fine! everything tastes better with pink floyd! it was great. adn the whole bacon thing was before animal farm. and before Animal farm they also had a five minute arguing contest about how some book he had someting about darkness and heart and i dont remember is the same as apocolaypse. and idk on spelling but get over it. and they were yelling back and forth adn then Mary said something to Helen about how "she has no life outside Twilight" Mary said Helen didnt. sorry if that was confusing. and for aminute i thought Helen was gonna smack a bitch! it was great. and then watching marys face when the fatass pig died was great because shes one of those people who "oh no i stepped on an ant" kind of vegetarian "i cant watch nythign get hurt!" and itd be okay if she was for real about it but i think she fakes it all. and yeah thats bitchy but look who your talking to. And speaking of faking things, Beth was put in the hospital because she "collapsed in walmart and hit her head ont eh way down." personally i think she just collapsed for the attention, drugs, and sympathy and then she did hit her head and had to be hospitalized. But it all started out as an attention thing. And this just popped into my head. have you ever heard someone say somethign like "oh its only a cry for help." no, its a cry for attention and youre giving it to them. ugh okay look what i found o roll that bad emoness cloud away
wow that sounded bad.

Girl #1: Why you got that scary picture as your wallpaper?
Girl #2: It's not scary. It's a pretty field and a tree.
Manager: It looks like Teletubbies are gonna walk over the hill and kill us all.
Girl #1: Why you gotta be so scary? Why can't you have a normal desktop picture? Like Betty Boop?


haha
Oh and the blood posioning thing, yeah i know i should let professionals do it but i cant very well do that legally. And mom says luckily i dont have blood posioning but i might have to get a tetnus shot.
maybe.
if its still reed tonight but its not that bad right now.
anyway.
I'ma get off here.

~Kayy

haha forgot something

how i forgot this i'll never know.
but i think i might have blood poisoning or ink poioning or something because i was an idiot and tried to tattoo myself.
i took sharpies and colored what i wanted then took a pushpin and scratched over it and then sharpie, puspin, sharpie etc over and over to try to get the sharpie to stain my skin.
and now my skin is not only stained with sharpie but its discolored.
lol
anyway.
off to read imdb.

~KAyy

EDIT:
lookie what i found off overheard in the office.
its amazing.
its Jazzy! lol (alice is gonna kill me)

Man diva: I mean, I cannot believe my little brother didn't notice that stain for five hours! How can you think it's water when it doesn't dry for five hours?
Girl: Well maybe he wasn't paying attention. It was your grandfather's funeral.
Man diva: Ohmigod it's like seven inches across the cuff!
Girl: I'm sure there's somewhere you can still wear them?
Man diva: Yeah, if somebody has a stain party!

It's Cauis 2.0!

Okay so me and Helen are working on our story starring the uberawesome Coach Rice as Cauis! And its about how Cauis came to be an evil vampire and i was like well this is Cauis 2.0! it was hilarious. OH before i go any farther, go to this link
you have to be an imdb member to see it but its frikin hilarious. OKay and so our uber awesome English class. We had a fifteen minute debate about the differences between a taco and a burrito. Not even kidding. And then Spped kept sayign how he was going to get a Breakfast Taco, and it was amazing. And then we made taco vs burrito refrences throughout the entire class. And before class Helen was being a hilarious bitch and look to this chick Mary that no one likes and was like "you look like Pippi Longstockings on crack!" it was hilarious! and then she apologized. Oh and then we watched the Leonardo DiCaprio version of Romeo and Juliet and absolutely laughed our asses off when they died. It was hilarious because she frickin MOVES and he doesnt notice and then she opens her eyes and watches him open the poison and touches his hand just as he drinks it and hes like "SHIT!" me and Helen were laughing the loudest because he looked like "shit, what have i done." and we're like moron! and SPeed wanted to watch Juliet say "oh happy dagger!" especially since it was a gun but Caius 2.0 (hehe) wanted to watch Prince say "ALL IS PUNISHEDED!" But the bell rang and everyone got up to leave but he held us hostage anyway. yeah
anyway. ima go because im trying to find this fanfic on the imdb boards that was amazing.

peace loves
~Kayy

The World Knit Back Together Slowly

I swear to God we've been down this road before
The guilt's no good, and it only shames us more
And the truths that we all try to hide, are so much clearer when its not our lives
When we don't face the blame

Won't you believe in this lie with us all?
GET ON YOUR KNEES. HAVE FAITH
But now my body's on the floor and I am calling, I'm calling out to you...can you hear me now??

It's not rebellion when you're selling out to an out of fashion salesman
Our promising lives, are full of empty promises
Temptation's falling and calling you home again
I'm sorry, if we've let you down

Won't you believe in this lie with us all?
GET ON YOUR KNEES. HAVE FAITH
But now my body's on the floor and I am calling, I'm calling out to you…can you hear me now??
Now my body's on the floor and I am crawling, I'm crawling out to you…can you hear me now???

What's wrong, what's wrong, what's wrong

Now my body's on the floor and I am calling, I'm calling out to you… CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW
~Hear Me Now~Faming Hanley

I officially love Framing Hanley. Kaila told me about them awhile back, and i finally got to listen to them this hectic weekend. Yeah, I know the weekend's barely started but ya know what, the past two days have been pretty frikin awesome. And we went to Dollywood yesterday and it was pretty cool then we came home and watched Dane Cook Vicious Circle on youtube. And we watched the HBO-unbleeped-uncut version adn OMIGOD that dudes hilarious. Then we went through all my friends' bands on Myspace and found new music, like Kill Hannah, and All TIme Low, adn things like that. And they are amazing. Then we played Inklink, and i fell asleep for an hour while Kaila was on there laughing at Bobby and Andrew. Lol. then we woke up this morning, ate yummy chocolate chip waffles, did laundry, i took a shower, Kaila's in the shower now, and then we're getting ready to leave at noon to go to the mall to hang out.
its gonna be funn. Well, ima get off here. ill be back monday

~Kayy

Because Things Aren't Complicated Enough.....

people have to add more and it sucks.
and i've come to realize a lot....things only get worse. but whatever. lets leave this emoness behind, bottle it back up and shove it away.


So im going to dollyhood with Kaila in like a hour. its going to be supermegaawesomeamazing. and we're going with Lisa and thats gonna rock. except on Thunderhead, someones gonna have to go alone. I ddnt think about that. oh well.

oh and i also realized i treat this too much like a journal so im ending that a bit.

by

~KAyy

and if u want to talk to me, call me.
or, for Kansas, email me or talk to me on facebook....

lookie what i found on Myspace

i love this
and yes its mushy but get over it

when she walks away from you mad, follow her.









when she stares at your mouth, kiss her.










when she pushes you or hits you, grab her and don't let go.










when she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.









when she's quiet, ask her what's wrong.











when she ignores you, give her your attention.









when she pulls away, pull her back.










when you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.










when you see her start crying, just hold her and don't say a word.










when you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.








when she's scared, protect her.









when she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.










when she steals your favorite hat, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.









when she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.










when she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.








when she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.









when she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.









when she grabs at your hands, hold her and play with her fingers.









when she bumps into you, bump back into her and make her laugh.









when she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.









when she looks at you in your eyes, don't look away until she does.










WHEN SHE MISSES YOU, she's hurting inside.









when she reposts this bulletin, she wants you to read it.










stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.









when she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.










when she says she's okay, don't believe it and talk with her...because 10 years later she'll remember you.










call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.










call her before you sleep and after you wake up.










treat her like she's all that matters to you.








tease her and let her tease you back.










stay up all night with her when she's sick


watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid.











give her the world.








let her wear your clothes.









when she's bored and sad, hang out with her.









let her know she's important




kiss her in the pouring rain.











when she runs up at you crying, the first thing you says is; "who's ass am i kicking baby?"



if you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will:
call you
kiss you
love you
text you
hug you and never let go.










guys post as: "i'd be this boyfriend"
girls post as: "a real boyfriend

This is the story of a girl......

So this song randomly popped into my head and i love it and i've lready posted a song on my actual song blog but get over it.

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles!...
How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears!
And i can be so insincere,
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!
How many days disapeer?
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day!
And your hair never falls in quite the same way!
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles!...
How many lovers stay?
Just to put of with this shit day after day!
(the last line was changed to to put up with every day and all day! for the music video)
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!
How do we get there today?
When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day!
And your hair never falls in quite the same way!
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles!...
Well Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And Your hair never falls in quite the same way
But you never seem to run out of things to say
This is the story of a girl!
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her
This is the story of a girl!
Her pretty face she hid from the world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her,
This is the story of a girl!
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her
When she smiles!
When she smiles!
~Story of a Girl~ Nine Days

And to take care of other business...
This is for Helen. She wanted to know what language they speak in Switzerland

The people of Switzerland speak many languages. They are influenced by the languages of France, Germany, Italy and Austria. A majority of the people, around 64%,speak German or the German influenced Swiss dialect of "Schwyzerdütsch." Around 19% of the Swiss people speak French. Another 8 % of the Swiss population speaks Italian while 1 % speaks Raeto-Romanic or Romansch. You can enjoy hearing these melodious languages being spoken on your tours of Switzerland with Switzerland Flexi Tours.

Swiss Literature reflects this mixture of influences and has been influenced by Latin-Swiss Literature in medieval times, and German-Swiss Literature and French-Swiss Literature in recent times. This mixture of cultures has led to the creation of a hospitable, international and cosmopolitan culture, among the people of Switzerland, which you can experience on tours of Switzerland with Switzerland Flexi Tours.

So there ya go.

And back to my wonderfuliscious song... I love that osng, it randomly popped into my head and it is AMAZING. So, today was supposed to emorific and all cutmywristwithgalssemoness but I think i'm not supposed to be all emolicious today because this morning Mom stopped and got me a JavaChiller from Sonic which was amazing. And then me and Sarah got all hyper happy. and then in English we watched the Leonardo DiCaprio version of Romeo and Juliet which absoluetly hilarious. I recommend it to anyone. But if you read the book first its a helluva a lot funnier. And then this class (CMS) theres six people including me and then the teacher. And thats it. Oh and in English we have to write a research report. and originally Helen was doing vampires and i was doing Volterra but now im doing the BEatles. Who helped me get my mellow this morning and i am in love with the folow song.

Ah, look at all the lonely people
Ah, look at all the lonely people

Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice in the church where a wedding
has been
Lives in a dream
Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by
the door
Who is it for?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from ?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong ?

Father McKenzie writing the words of a sermon that no one will
hear
No one comes near.
Look at him working. Darning his socks in the night when there's
nobody there
What does he care?

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?

Eleanor Rigby died in the church and was buried along with her
name
Nobody came
Father McKenzie wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from
the grave
No one was saved

All the lonely people
Where do they all come from?
All the lonely people
Where do they all belong?
~Elanor Rigby~beatles

I love that song. It=amazingness. okay so im totally bored. and tired. even after the JavaChiller. probably because i woke up at 5:55 and took a ten minute shower. yeah, me! i was amazed normlly its like half an hour and moms banging on the door yellin for me to get out.

okay emoness over i can happyhappyjoyjoy. lol. okay so i am ultimately bored. ima read comedy central jokes. i might get on later.
who know?

~Kayy

"You are not John Rice anymore. That man is dead now. Now, you will be known only as 'The Law Giver'."

yes, Cauis, you will be the LAw Giver and only that.
haha. its a line form the story me and HElen are creating. So yeah i know i've already posted today but get over it. I'm Comcastic therefore there has to be somethign other than emoness on tv.
haha.
so i dont know if Kaila's videos showed up or not on ur guys' computers, but it didnt onthese cause its the stupid school.
So Dollhood should be fun. take my mind off things...
we're gonna ride thunderhead over and over and over and over and over. and then Mystery Mine once because last time we rode it twice in a row, Kaila got sick. So no more of that. and we gotta avoid mitch.
OH!
i havent told u about mitch and the great christmas tree fiasco of 06.
OKAY
so me and Kaila went to Dollyhood one time with her cousins Curtis and Clark. And they have this talking christmas tree. and of course the tree is fake and theres a person inside it and everything. And so we start looking for the camera and mic that HAS to be there. and then we found the camera on the wall and then we were staring at it and MItch, the worker, walked over and asked what we were looking at and Kaila goes "the wall" and hes like "why?" and i was being a smart ass and go "we like walls!" adn then the tree overheard us and was like "WALLS! I LIKE WALLS!" and then started screaming about the wall and Curtis adn Clark got freaked and left so the tree starts screaming about if it can be Clark's Lois. It was weird. Then Mitch told us we shouldnt be staring at walls and that caused me and Kaila to laugh again adn then hes like "seriously, why were you looking there" and i was like "we found the camera and i was pointing it out." and then he was like why were you looking for a camera? and i was like we're on a scavenger hunt. for cameras! and then we saw he was pissed and left. and then we tried to go back this past christmas and they moved the tree back to where you cant get within thirty feet of the damn thing. Which really sucks because Mitch was down there and we were gonna tell him we were looking for microphones this time. haha.

okay so be glad the emoness mood is slowly fading.........
so now we're gonna try to avoid him (MItch) at all costs because he hates us. and i can prove that.

another story....
So normally on rainy, not really busy days, you can ride the rides over and over. And we normally ride Thunderhead over and over. And normally the people are just like "yeah just change seats so we dont get caught." and everyone working the ride has to agree. and one time mitch was controlling the train and everyone was like yeah sure! and hes like no! get the hell off my ride! he hates us.
its bad.
okay so ima find somehting to do, i might be back later.

Sorry Kaila,

okay so emoness mood has returned. no more mr. wooden alligator. If ya want that go to Kaila's blog.

And i really cant explain the emotastic mood. its just there.
and i had a really cool title this morning but i cant think of it so ima just leave it blank for now and think of one later...

okay so this emoness really sucks.................and i have no idea what it is..........
oh no;....i do know what it is i just cant do anything about it. do u remember when i said this in earlier post?

"everything in life is nothing but a big joke, busy work, something to do before we die. WE mean nothing, life means nothing. if there is a god then he created us as playthings, things he can look at and go "oh thats funny" its like we're just cable, really really good cable. we're like DishTV or whatever. WE're Comcastic. WE're nothing. WE mean nothing really and life is hell. Pretty much."

that wonderful mood is back and i want it gone. g-o-n-e gone. this sucks.......
i should do something productive with this mood like maybe go work on the book buttttt i dont like writing in school. So there goes that idea. emoness officiailly sucks. and like i said theres nothing i can do so that sucks.
someone please explain to me why this always happens. i was happy, jumpy, me, for one day. one flippin day and then this happens? Seriously, i dont want to be in a bad mood having someone worry baout me when they should be concerned about themselves. i hate being all depressing and junk but nothing drags me out of it....well, almost nothing. and it doesnt help that my ipod is filled with rock and nothing happy. And that sucks.


and here
feel my pain because of the music gods

Lets go!!!

With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I called her name
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fuckin hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better

Your tears don't fall they crash around me,
Her concious calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall they crash around me,
Her concious calls the guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screamin,
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me if I called her name
Would she hold me if she knew my shame

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fuckin hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better

Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come home

OH!... YEAH!!

This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time!

LETS GO!

[Guitar solo]

Would she hear me if I called her name
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
There's always someone fuckin hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better

Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come...

Better!!!

Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall they crash around me
Her concious calls the guilty to come home

~Kayy

Gangsta gangsta 245. Kaila's here so the blog's (not emo) and alive! :D

"You never had a sixteenth birthday party!"
"Oh, yeah, I did. And mom came down drunk in her panties complaining how dad didn't touch her anymore. ONE HELL OF A PARTY, HUH?!"
-Still Standing TV show people
:D
Wowzers.
That just came on right as I was loading this page on my computer.
So, after all of this bullshitty emo crap Kayla has been posting, I figured I would make it all happy by this:

:D
Wow. I love Mr. Wooden Alligator.
Anyway.... hmm... I'm pretty bored. I wrote this essay about the Black Death today.
I also did my math EOC. But that's not really exciting.
Let's see... how to make this post more interesting... (besides the wooden alligator screaming out obscenities on an emo-persons blog).
:)
Oh, the post title is from the "Gangsta Gangsta" song by Lil Jon or some other rapper. idk. It's on my ipod which I was listening to riding the bus home.
Hmmm... oh well. I'm just gonna add pictures!
:D

And Then My Whole World Blew Up and All That Was Left Was Remnants of Him....

i dunno. Dont Ask me about the title today, its emorific and absolutely perfect. Im kinda in like a emoness mood kinda not, idk. its weird. and im bored outta my everlovin mind. I wanna go sleep......... and stay up.....and do work....and nothing.....all at once.
Thats possible, right?

ugh so forget that for now, im bored.
oh so i might be getting a tattoo sooner than expected, i dont know yet. But Nikki knows this kid who makes really good fake IDs. and she might get me one so i can go with her to get her nose peirced and im getting a tattoo. Its gonna be the blue heart with pinkish purpleish outlining. Its there most the time anyway so why not make it permanent?

okay so now what? i want to go work more on From Ebony to Ivory/Devil's Servant/Saving Jaret/ whatever the hell im naming that damn book.

oh so Leann's retarded. She was snorting Baby Bottle Pop powder and she says the BEST statement ever

Im using my mouth not my nose

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa
okay.........

okay so my ipod is being annoying as hell. it keeps skipping some songs and it aint supposed to do that. At all.

So back to the tattoo thing. So in an attempt to show me how "bad a tattoo will hurt" Nikki had me take a needle and press it into where i want the tattoo over and over as hard as i could. then color with it at that pressure. And it didnt really hurt that bad, just red spots and bits of blood. It was fun though. I really dont think that shell really get me the ID though to do it and Mom sure as hell aint signing a consent form.

Oh so you want to hear something hilarious? Beth went to every class yesterday, but skipped third, lunch, adn missed the bus on purpose so she wouldnt have to "deal with all this drama." Kinda funyn when she is the cause of all the fucking drama. i think everyone finds it hilarious.

ugh so i want to go sleep on the half court line. dont ask me why the half court line, i think im starting to use it just as a way to say im sleepin during school end of story. dude, do u know how hard it is to type and write with busted knuckles? its......it doesnt hurt but its not very comfortable either. ugh, its annoying.
Ooh, i jusut got the random urge to go climb a tree. lets go..........

Bored Muchly ™

okay so ima go read old posts from Helens blogg.
bye

~Kayy

I can see this happening....

So on imdb theyre talking about things Emmett would do/say adn even though we know the guys woulnd do this its too funny


EMMETT:hey edward! edward lookk what we did!
JASPER:yea! you have to help!!!
EDWARD:oh god, fine.
EMMETT:I'M BRINGIN SEXY BACK
JASPER:YEA
EMMETT:THEM OTHER BOYS DON'T KNOW HOW TO ACT
JASPER:YEA
EMMETT:THEY THINK YOU'RE SPECIAL WHAT'S BEHIND YOUR BACK
JASPER:YEA
EMMETT:SO TURN AROUND AND I'LL PICK UP THE SLACK
JASPER:YEA
EMMETT:KICK IT TO THE CHORUS
EDWARD: *in a really high falsetto voice* DIRTY BABE.. YOU SEE THESE SHACKLES, BABY I'M YOUR SLAVE...



HAHAHAHHAHAHA *rolling on ground laughing my ass off* hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!

this post ran off to find Felix in Cauis' basement.

It'll be back momentarily...

*yelling to post*
did ya find em?!
No? Okay...come back...


okay hes back.

so heres today's post...

SO this weekend was interesting. All weekend i helped move three households into one little house, ran cable, organized the laundry room adn kitchen, went to Walmart, got stuck in a state bed truck, got out of the truck, set up the band room, tried to figure out why the shitty First Act guitar had one of the stands while my Fender laid in the dirt, beat the shit outta Leann and busted my knuckles open. And still found time to read over 100 pages of Stephen King's Firestarter and ride through the countryside listening to Metallica, and debate the fact that Obama's the Anti-Christ. Oh, you wanted detail? okay. So the moving: we had to move stuff from the lakehouse, the Hall's house, and the apartment into this one little rental house. Then i had to help dad run cable at eight-nine in the morning. Then i organized the entire kitchen so it wasnt as bad. And the laundry room. Then went with Susan to Lowes and Walmart to get splash guards and bath rugs, minor adjustments on the house. Dad put us in the state bed truck, pulled the gate up adn tried to see if we got out. I was first by climbing onto the hood and sliding down. it took the other two girls a bit longer to figure it out. and then I set up the band room in the basement and debated with dad on the best way to get electricity down there. In the end i won even htough hes the electrician. And then I carefully put my bass on the ground, commenting on how unfair it was the shitty First Act got the stand while my Fender was on the ground--even if it was in the case its still unfair. And then me and Leann got into a fightbecause Sarah called Leann a jerk (leann was being bitchy.) and then LEann tried to pull Sarah off the porch swing to fight and I pulled Leann back and she threw i punch that i neatly dodged and put her to ground. then it was just us wrestling and beating hte shit outta each other. She kicked me in teh face and i kicked her in the stomach. but all's good, we didnt get too hurt. The most was a numb feelin in my skull and she has a red mark on her stomach. Throughout the weekend i read Firestarter and listened to Metallica--all nonstop Metallica=amazing. and then I listened as Nikki and Dad debated on whether or not Obama is the Anti-Christ. I dont remember much of the debate so cant explain it. And i busted my knuckles open. No, not by beating Leann but on the ceiling. Yes, the ceiling. So i was looking for my shorts and found them on the bed. I jumped up there, phone in hand and when i jumpe off, the hand that held the shorts went up for balance and scraped against the ceiling, tearing off bits of my skin. my reaction "oh look...blood..."
the end of my weekend
have ya ever had one of thsoe days where a word looks really funny and looks like it has more meaning than it really does? That's how "blood" looks today. like something sinister, evil, waiting to just strike out at ya. I hate it when it does tht but thats how it looks now. its creepy. oh well
soooo
oh so they're playing the Twilight trailer in both Speed Racer and What Happens in Vegas I think i wanna see it in What Happens in Vegas that way i dont have to sit through the dumb speed one. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oh i get to skip school on Friday to go to Dollyhood. me and Kaila and Lisa are going. it's gonna be funn. of course, it might be a bit of a bummer because of the sheer day of it (i know most of u have no idea what im talking about) and that will definitely suck ass but hopefully dollyhood will keep my mind off of it. And i think im getting mom a candle or somethign from dollyhood for mothers day.

ohmigah.
people can be idiots. i have this thing on my yahoo thats called overheard in the office and this is one
Girl #1: Well, her parents did give birth to her.
Girl #2: Which parent?!
Girl #1: ... Her mum.
haha retards.'
OMIFUCKINGGOD they are making another high school musical. are they out of their everloving minds?!why do we need those fags anymore? ANd i'm sorry if thats offensive but true. okayyy bored outta MY everloving mind. gah, i have PT next, its hard to do pushups with busted knuckles. I tried. And it hurts to straighten them out.
well ima get off here, leaving soon.

~KAyy

I'm Going to Therapy For My Bitch Problems....

well, I'm not, but whore-bitch Beth is. Well, least thats what she told Kirstyn. She told Kirstyn shes "going to therapy so i can start eating and work on my anger issues and my bitch problems." I was like really? because you cant stop being a bitch on your own? Here let me save her time and money....
haha
but i've been banned from kicking beths ass. by both James and Helen.
i cant do it...
bummer.
haha so guess what!
Cauis was walking into school and i go "CAUIS!" and he turns and i wave and hes like "...." it was great. and then as he told us in class he had a really bad morning, his tire exploded and he had to get a ride from his wife and the whole dialogue following that statement was funny. because someone said Cauis had to get a ride from his mommy and Causi is like "yes i got a ride from my mommy" just kidding around adn AJs like "I get a ride from my mommy" it was great. then Cauis had a bunch of phone calls to the guy that was supposed to pick up his acar off the side of the road and then he told us he was going to send this 'slave locked in the basement" after Mr. Parker, the guy who was supposed to pick his car up. and then he explained that the "slave has been locked in my basement for 26 years. he was frozen in ice. he's egyptian." then Nick (affectionately called Yoda) asked what his name was and Cauis is like dont worry about it you wont be able to pronounce it. So now we are saying that the Egyptian slave is really Felix. haha.
dude. im bore dto the extreme. and tired. I got four and half hours of sleep last night, me and Nikki went out. we have this tradition of going out on midnight walmart trips. and last nigth we took our wamart trip. First we went to Taco Bell to see Amber, one of her old high school friends. and then we went back to the house because Nikki forgot her debit card then we went to the Taco Bell in fron of walmart, then we went into Walmart and just walked around. And then at ONE IN THE MORNING we leave. it was pretty fun. I'm tired today though. And we're playing the Army recruiters in flag football next period. Fun....and i get to talk to Beth because thats all im allowed to do. Gah....im like half asleep.
dudeeeeeee so i think i figured a way to go to Dollyhood without having to take money from peopel *cough cough*. Nikkis told me if i want to go to dollywood just go and i think im just gonna go ahead and go with the everyone to dollywood and just plan to do somethign else with her next time shes in. so Kaila's got this one free admission thing that ima use until i got money to get my pass upgraded. she dont know bout this yet though. haha. dude...bored and tired and halfasleep and i pray that we play tackle when we play the recruiters because i will knock beth on her ass--even if shes on my team. okay u know what? im bored and half asleep adn i hate htis. Dude, so i havent drawn on my hand in like a week adn my hand has a blue and pink heart stained on there. its really faded now but its still there. thats so cool
oh so theres like only 13 more school days left. well, 14 including MAy 9th when im skippin to go to dollyhood. i just hope i get all my exams in before then. ah! i hate my shoelaces. I got new ones but they're really thin and dont really do anything, not even tie the shoe tight enough to stay on my foot adn its annoying as hell. dude. boredom. Oh so ...shit...i forgot.
nevermind.
dude its cold in here. .
gah i wanna go sleep. wither that or someone bring me coffee. i personally vote for u bringing me Starbucks because, hey lets face it, Starbucks just rocks. Plus, im not allowed to sleep--some dumbass thing Eddies making em do to "prepare me for being a vampire"
lol
dude..boredom.....
i just realized how much i say dude
i gotta quit that
im annoying myself. so i know i must be annoying u peoples.
im like fixing to fall asleep.
never again will i go on a walmart trip that lasts, what?, two hours?.
...
...
...
okay Music Gods, have your laugh. i personally dont think its funny to play soft songs on my ipod when im already fighting sleep.
thank you very much!
my ipods dying
i think i pissed them off.
sorry.....


so where am i going after school? do i want to be forced to sit with Beth and ride to Mimis or go home? normally on fridays i have to go to Mimis but because dads working late i get my choice. im thinking the house. so i can charge my ipod sooner.
and now im reading posts on IMDbc.com's message board bout things emmy would do/say
pretty funny shit.
jesus freakin christ could this period go by any slower?! the internet is boring when there no myspace. i seriously dont hitnk theres anything to do but ramble on and on about howbored i am................................................
theres nothinggggggg..........



unless i go and try to find more copper ridge shit but that gets boring really easily because its always the same articles..

ima go do something though
see yaaa
~Kayy

Whats a Crappachino???

Nikki: I want a white mocha with ice.
Kay, what do you want?
Me: Uhm, ooh a Frappachino sounds good....but I'll take a vanilla latte....
Nikki: Sounds good. Mom is that okay?
Mom: yea. i guess.
Leann: What's a Crapachino?
*all bust out laughing*
Nikki: that was on purpose but still....*continues laughing*

MY family's amazing. And yes that really did happen. it was last nigth adn Nikki was talking about how she was craving Starbucks adn i was like oh yeah! and then
^^^that conversation ^^^ occured and it was great. And i got a medium vanilla latte and chugged half of it and stayed up till eleven. Yeah i know, whoopdeedo eleven at night but usually im asleep, knocked out, gone by ten thirty at latest. So. let me fill u in with what alls been going on. Last night church was okay, i guess. they played Flyleaf which was pretty spiffy. And then we went Starbucks and then to Sonic for Leann since she doesnt like coffee. Then home where i did homework and chugged coffe. Then Nikki and Mom entertained the thought of James coming over sometime soon and im like...uhm...okay? it was weird. And today is the last day i have to wear this stupid uniform!!!! YAY!!! and then i gotta get it dry cleaned and turn it back in. And i get to keep "nametag, socks, shoes, and any ribbons or awards you may have gotten" in the word of Colonel. Except I havent gotten any "ribbons or awards" and I dont want my shoes and i lost the socks. I'll keep the name thingy though. thats kinda cool. And lets see. oh i dropped my phone earlier. It was bad. i was trying to text James back and i dropped my phone and it has a major dent in the side. Helen suggested putting clear nail polish on it to try to fill it in and make it look good. Idk if itd work though. And now, since im in service dress and have no pockets, my phones up my sleeve and keeps falling out if i dont hold it just right. And i dont need anymore scratches in it thank you very much. Oh and something i just remembered about yesterday. So theres this really annoying kid in my ROTC class, Benjy, and he thinks that everythign has to revolve around him...well wait. why about i just tell u from beginning to end what happened in ROTC. well me and kirstyn had major headaches and Colonel announces we're playing Jeopardy. And throughout the entire ame there is yelling and screaming. And this one guy Buskey, when he would get a question wrong, he would try to argue and i got fed up with it and yelled over everyone and said to shut the hell up its just a game quit acting like three year olds and i look over to Buskey and go "you are in high school, act like it. There is no reason to be getting worked up over a GAME. its a game Buskey. Quit arguing and Shut up!" And of course i thought i'd get fussed at by Colonel but he kept going. then after clas Bethtried to be the center of attention and i told her to shut the fuck up before i shut her up permanately. Then her and Benjamin (Benjy) got into it because he was resigning or something and he did it wrong apparently or not the way she wanted it or something and she starts bitching and instead of just doing it the way she wanted so shed stop bitchin and he starts this whole argument and I go "BENJAMIN! just do it so shell stop bitching! it is not worth the argument! just fucking do it!" and then he tried to argue with me and i got in his face and told him to quit trying to be the center of attention and the victim in everything. then i stormed out as the bell rang. And then kirstyn caught up with me and Benjamin was behind her and then me and kirstyn was talking and i said "yeah i dont want to go to church tonight" and Benjamin, like he always is, tried to jump in adn was like "hey dont be dissin church-" and i cut him off and turned around and went "benjamin no one really cares what you think we listen to you so you shut up faster--" adn before i could continue, Kirstyn grabbed me, turned me around and kept me walking so i wouldnt get into a fight. NOTE: this is the second time in two hours Kirstyn had to do that. Yesterday wasnt good at all. And todays worse because of this uniform. ROTC is the root of it all, swear. if i wasnt in ROTC none of this drama would exist, then again i wouldnt have been in Shinn's art class, wouldnt have transferred to CMS, and wouldnt be bloging religiously. Holy Jesus, Mary Joseph, and the camel (haha i stoleded Helen's phrase!) oh and we got report cards yesterday. i did pretty good. English--B (i think) CMS--A (98 to be exact) ROTC--C Keyboarding--B.
i might have gotten rotc and keyboarding switched but oh well. and now today i have to go try pick up James's so he doesnt have to worry about it tomorrow, but i dont know if they'll let me. Ima try though. I'll get Kirstyn to go with me. gahh, i hat ethis uniform. Ima see if Colonel will let me change after school. I'll lie and say that i have to go somewhere im not authorized to wear the uniform....a meeting at church discussing political views.....there we go. haha thats sad but i really dont like this uniform. And i brought hangers in my backpack and clothes and shoes and eveyrhting. My bag's really heavy because of it but i dont care. I really really dont like this uniform. the sooner i get out of it the better. Oh, i have a doctors appointment and my mom wanted me to change. there we go. i just hope the hangers arent bent, they're plastic but still. my phones geting annoying too. Oh adn the guys in CMS are retarded. they found it absolutely hilarous that the shelf on the desk vibrated and COdys shoes squeaked when we came in from outside, absoluetly hilarous guys let me tell you gah im bored. oh look what i found on imdb.com (opnly posting the good ones
THINGS EMMETT WOULD SAY/DO
1. Do the SOULJA BOY!
2. Pop, Lock, & Drop It
3. Wrestle a bear...shark...lion...BASICALLY ANYTHING EXTREMELY DANGEROUS AND WIlD
4. Arm wrestle Bella (when she's a vamp) and make up an excuse about how he wasnt ready when she wins a second into the game.
5. Give Bella a GREAT BIG BEAR hug once she's a vamp even if she's trying to bite his neck off
6. Give a loud HELL YEA! after Bella and Edward say I do, lol
7. Say the Thing's line "It's Clobbering Time!"
8. When hunting for a bear, say to it, "Eh Boo Boo! Can I git another pinic basket!"
9. Try to sing at the wedding.
10. Do the cha cha slide with alice.
11. Sing "Shawty got low, low, low, low..." every time Bella falls.
12. Go "Bow chicka wow wow" at the mention of Edward and Bella's wedding night.
13. Go "THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID" at the end of a sentence, even if it doesn't make any sense.
14.Suddenly shout at Edward and Bella during a quiet moment at the wedding, "Are you guys just gonna stand there or what?!"
15. Dropkick a tree
16.Wrestle newborn Bella
17. Make every alternate Wednesday Seduce Carlisle day.
18. At any point in time: Edward, you're a dumbass."
19. Pants Jasper

then heres what i said to 19
hahahahahhaha
then in revenge, Jazzy'd make him feel all warm and fuzzy inside and spill all his sappiest emotions
lol

haha. dude this post is forever long.

Seriously!

"Dude, you're crashing our weird, stop crashing our weird and go over there and make your own weird." ~From Kansas' blog.

haha. thats hilarious. So. How's it been people? today has absolutely sucked. Lets see. First I get woken up by being yelled and screamed at. And its freezing in my room. So i grab this quilt thing i gots on my ed and threw that over me and went back to sleep. Then i get yelled and screamed at AGAIN. and im like ok! i'm comin! then i took a shower, got out and not ten minutes later i was waiting for MOM to hurry up who had wasted her time yelling and screaming at me. I'm like hey here i am ready to go. Then it all went downhill from there. its sucked. and Kaila keeps saying how i should take the $80 which sorry im not doing and its kinda getting annoying. Have a ever been at that point where your sick of EVERYTHING. you're sick of everything and theres never anything remotely interesting going on. Its like that again. I absolutely hate everything. theres no point in it. like ever. period. the end. fin.
dude this class is boring. and i have to get money later from chris. he left some in the office for me. ugh! and i have to figure out how to get $60. i found 20 in my room and theni think if i hoard this money JUST right, I'll be able to get some more. At least another ten. Of course that means lying about how much i have constantly and keeping up with the lies. But that should be okay. I've had enough experience with lying to get by with it. like for example if Chris gives me a five then i here's what i do. Buy a drink from colonel so i have $4.50 and then give 50 cents to Davis from where i borrowed money from her yesterday. and then use the four dollars remaing and tell mom I bought a drink from the vending machine and so then i have 3.75 for tomorrow and then tell her i bought food fromt eh vending machine and a drink therefore i have 1.50 but i bought two snackos and therefore only two quaters. When in reality i'll have $4.00. and then ask for money Friday.
THATS how you get money!
well i gotta go
peace and love
Kayy

And Then We All Went Boom

Okay so really weird, I keep thinking of really off the wall titles for the blog posts then never get to the point of them. Like i dont think we all went boom. lol anyway. Cauis was out today so me and Helen had to bug the sub and it wasnt fun because it was MR. dean aka the ONE sub or tries to bug you! no fun. especially because he told us useless facts. It was weird and Helen was the first to leave because she absolutely hates this guy and she was waiting for me and shes like Kayla come on! i told her i was hurrying and i shoved my binder into my backpack and this guys STILL talking about useless history and something about Shakespeare being a Jew (not kidding) and Helen goes "ISABELLA!" and im like I'm coming Rosalie! hold on! it was funny and we walk out and hes still talking about shakespeare being jewish and me and Helen are like ok seriously? shut up! it was kinda funny. oh and yesterday me and helen were talking about something i dont remember what and this teacher turns around and starts talking to us all overanimatedly and me and Helen held it in and as soon as she left us alone we start busting out laughing. It was hilarious because she just jumped right in there. Have you ever done that to people at the mall or walmart or something? Like they're at walmart and talking to someone next to them about what else they need from the grocery section and you just get behind hem and tell them to pick up Pringles or something. I love doing that. And me and my dad will go behind people at the mall and if they're talking on the cell phone and Dad's been like "Oh no she didnT!" its great. my dads hilarious. OMIGAH! like one time a telemarketer called and Dad picked up and they're like is so-and0so there and hes like yeah hold on and then acts like hes yelling for so-and0so to pick up the phone. and its hilarious. he does it with prankcallers too. but ya got to get him in the right mood. anyway....so how bout we quit talking about that and talk about something remotely normal. Like the fact i gotta find $83 to go to Dollywood. Kaila's allowed one skip day from school and its May 9th. and she wants me to go to Dollywood with her and im like "I'M BROKE!!!" so i have to figure up a way to get $83 to get my pass renewed so i can go with her. and of course i've gotten an offer from someone who says they'll give me the money but...I cant take that! its EIGHTY dollars!!!!! im not taking that from someone unless its like my mom or something. nope.

but anyway.
i'm bored.
ima post this.
be back later
~Peace loves~
Kayy

Success!

i got bored enough to go back to the copper ridge thing
and i found something other than crosses!
yes!

Evil on Copper Ridge Road



An abandoned building on Copper Ridge Road in Knoxville, TN, is said to be home to evil. People who visit are often overcome with fear. The building has also recently been home to Satanists as well. Now it is heavily guarded by the police.
Accounts vary on the building's history. It's a large, two story building which is now badly run down. Some claim that it was a Masonic lodge. Others say it was a church. Still others say it was a hospital during the Civil War. Perhaps it was all of these at different points in it's history. Maybe someone more familiar with the structure can clear this controversy up.

The building is said to be home of evil spirits. One story posted online tells of a group who went into the building after dark and placed a tape recorder inside recording. A little while later, they returned and listened to it. They heard a voice begging for help! The put it back into the building and left it overnight. When they listened to it the next day, they heard noises and screams, until footsteps approached the recorder and turned it off! Other reports claim dark figures walk around the building at night, and red eyes can be seen staring out at you.

The cemetery next to the building is also said to be home to some paranormal activity. Moans are sometimes heard, and mist and strange lights are sometimes seen.

What causes all these occurrences? No one can be sure, which is probably for the best.


obviously that was an article i found
and it would help to know the story but whatever

and
dead end
oh well it was worht a shot

Oh Strangle Me With A Coat Hanger...

So. I made it through Friday alone with Beth, thank god. And I made it through the weekend. But before i get to the weekend, Fridays first.
So we are all very fortunate that Benjy was with me and BEth at lunch or else i just might've gotten in a bunch of trouble. Nonstop, do you know what I hear? Her talking abotu how "prom night's gonna be great" and "what do i do if he got a room"
seriously, I dont care. Go do what you do best, be a whore. And if i have to hear her bitch about how bad her life is swear i'll punch her in her face. I dont care whos there and who saw. I'll do it. But on the upside, i made it to the weekend. But unfortunately I couldnt go to Helens party because Kaila was stuck on the lake with her dad and grandmother and grandfather, leaving me stranded without a ride to Helens party. We had to know by one whether or not i had a ride and i didnt so i had to help pack and move for dad. And packing is lame. because...ok ill just tell you the story. So i went with dad as he met his nephew Glen and picked up a freezer. I stayed over by Glen's truck as they loaded the freezer and then we rode over to the new house out in strawberry plains. We were at Neal' landing off Ashville Hwy so it didnt take long to get there. And im in dad's truck with him listening to metallica as we lead Glen to the new house, the fridge (which is in the back of dads truck) flaps in the wind. Then we unload the freezer only to discover that dad and glen cant get it by themselves so dad calls uncle walter. Then we meet him over at Pappaw Chesneys old house aka the site where dad grew up and hes currently planning to build a house in the backyard. So Uncle Walter meets us adn we get a stove from the falling, decaying house and i play with Crystal's (shes my...cousin?.... i think) dogs, Blue and Daisy/Dixie (we never figuered out which one) and then found pot growing in the side yard. Interesting. And then we went back to the rental house and unloaded the stove and fridge. They got the fridge into the kitchen adn the stove in the kitchen adn ended up putting the freezer, with help from uncle walter, in the basement i think. And then we unloaded boxes, waited til the fridge settles then tried to get it to work adn it broke. so after dad muttering some very choice words we left and he threatened to let all hell loose on the company he had just bought the fridge from. i think he said the compressors broken. Then Sunday we went up to the lakehouse for ten hours and packed then we went to the house unloaded and came back. and i hit my hand many times, when we got home, Mason slammed my hand in the door and i made Eddiemuffinz for Helen to make up for missing her party. And now im sitting her reading about some idiot that successfully jumped with an exact copy of the parachute Leo Da Vinci created.

PAYERNE, Switzerland (AFP) - A 36-year-old Swiss amateur parachutist made a successful 650-metre (2,130-foot) drop Saturday using a replica of a parachute designed more than 500 years ago by Leonardo da Vinci.

see? kinda interesting. No doubt we'll be talking about that in ROTC. fun? i think not. Oh and speaking of fun. So theres this thing on facebook where you can "own" your friends. and i thought itd be funny to steal beth from tim and see how mad he got. And he got pretty mad and sent me a message saying "ill be your friend if you dont steal beth" and im like you can have her. its not like anyone really wants her" and he responded with "thats not really nice to say to be honest that was uncalled for" and im like yeah, so? Does it look like i care? no. not really buddy. And then when i stopped by their (beth tim Kirstyn) table to get the muffinz for helen Beth kinda waved and i just rolled my eyes and tim looked at me and omigod he was pissed. It was great. I really dont like him and i dont give a damn what he thinks.

but anyway. Im bored. theres like absolutely nothing to do. at all. and i've got another hour in here. Oh! i gotta look up something for Helen! She wanted me to look up on the twilight lexicon how many siblings Rosalie had when she was human. And it doesnt say on there about her human life that much. Which means i'll look it up when i get home. Helen said that Rosalie had two younger siblings but she couldnt remember whether it was two brothers or a brother and a sister. But i'll look it up for her. god im bored. Oh and Cauis aint gonna be in class tomorrow which sucks because i hate subs. They suck. oh and people in romeo and juliet need acting lessons
666
because
they seriously suck bad. Like leanns a better actress. and thats sad, like the crying parts, my god. HUgh Jackman does better! seriously! and helens convinced that the guy that played Tybalt (who cant act either) is Asher Fleming from Gilmore Girls. Im checking now.
Deans last name was Forester? uh didnt know that....
Babbette had a last name?!...
wasnt marty the naked guy?...
the pastor had a name?...really...
wow this is interesting but no asher yet...
found him!
Asher Fleming played by Michael York....click Michael York...scroll...god this kid was in alot....BY GOD HE DID! he was Tybalt! well he died anyway. well TYbalt did not Michael York. well maybe he did i dont know. but
OMIGAH!
thats....scary.
and apparently talent gets better with practice because in gilmore girls he was okay but when he played Tybalt, god he sucked. okay. Now what?
So, i guess being a porn star when your a disney kid is in now.
Miley cyrus joined Vanessa whore hudgens.
not shocking.
hey.
my ipod
is amazing!
"Not too late" three days grace is on.
OH!
So ...
guess what!
3 doors down is back1
Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they premiered ther new song
"its not my time"
on vh1 top 20 countdown this weekend. its great!
they found a new drummer since the old one went to Nickelback and so they got a new one.
im looking at their site now. ugh its annoying.
they've upgraded to flash...
theres nothing about the new drummer.
nothing. that sucks.
Okay thats it.
killing all of cms
bye!
~Kayy

I Shall Shank Thee and Shank Thee I Shall.

So. I officially love Romeo and Juliet. Simply for the conversations it sparks up. Like today we compared Tybalt's death to AJ (who has choosen to go by Alejandro Jose lol) Great Shanker. Yes, he has created a Great Shanker. He taped a piece of paper to the end of a pencil and says hes gonna shank somebody with it. And Speed said that he had a dream last night of AJ shanking someone with a toothbrush. It was great. And then we ate cookies and Krebs wasnt allowed to talk so Speed kept translating. It was great. Then when i was talking to Helen i said something about Hello Kitty and Krebs freaked, well as much as he was allowed to not being able to talk and everything, and him and Helen had a whole conversation about Hello Kitty without him speaking. it was hilarious. I think i like krebs better when he DOESNT talk. haha. So. Im bored now. I'm listening to my Ipod. I finally figured out how to add just the songs i want without deleting them all but they're all in alphabetical order by artist. Its weird. And then like I have two Bullet for my Valentine cds and the Posion one is first because, in alphabetical order, Poison comes before Scream Aim Fire. its weird. I also realized that it takes me forever to type alphabetical. Because i keep forgetting how to spell it. Im bored. oh so haha i shall tell you about my drill comp thing. So we did Inspection where i got counted off for my "sparkly purple" nail polish when i think its really just a shiny flesh color. Fine. its pale purple. but whatever. Smitty thankfully told me that i got a 93 because i guess he could see that i was worried bout my score. And then Sargent came around behind Colonel and Smitty, who by the way is right under Ashli who is the Squadron Commander. So Sargent came round and asked three questions. He asked what stance the element in front of me was at and i said parade rest and got it right. in drill what stance must the commander be at to call a command? Attention. Then the question i love the best. "You are in drill. You are at parade rest. What must occur before order arms?" and i know he was looking for come to attention but I said, with a huge smile "you must be called to attention, present arms, then order arms can properly be called." and hes like well yeah guess so. and moved on. And then we did the drill thing and i think we did better on the practice round. AND OMIGOD. the nerve he has! So Nikki came to watch right? And Nikki told me that before we even started Sargent told her "you know your sister cant march worth crap, right?" which i know i cant. I suck. I'll be the first to say it but he really didnt need to do that. it was uncalled for and unneccessary. And im killing beth. Not only was she high yesterday, both in uniform and in front of my sister who could tell, but also she ran into Taylor by accident and turned to me and says "I just grabbed his penis!" with my sister there! i mean seriously? and then she was being the hypocritical bitch she is and when this girl (i will not mention her name) fell doing the standard Thursady-I-Dont-want-to-wear-this-uniform-so-i'll-fake-sick routine, Beth, who does the same damn thing, got all bent out of shape and was all over her, "honey are you okay? stand up, careful sweetie," which just gives her the attention she wants, Beth goes "shes faking it" literally behind the girl's back. Seriously? And now, because everyone else except me and beth is going on the trip, me and beth are the only ROTCy people, and the only person i know and can sit with, has to sit together. ugh! and i forgot to get a lunch pass to the library so i cant escape to the library and i cant escape to the back gym because ROTC, including Colonel and Sargent, are leaving at 1:30 and we cant get permission to be back there. So that sucks and im stuck with her. And i know some people reading this are gonna be like big deal, thirty minutes with beth, but ou dont understand. thats thirty minutes litstening to her bitch constantly.
it sucks majorly. either i hear her bitch or talk about that damn prom. i'm gonna smack a bitch today. Except Jenn and Sarah6666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666
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will wanna watch. ^^note from James obviously^^
and Kirstyn will wanna smack a hoe too.
I might just do it though and just video tape it so that they can still see it.
I'd do it.
just wish i had that brace still. Thatd hurt.
yeah, i got off topic. i was gonna talk about shanking people. but that didnt work.
alright well ima go check up on Kansas.
~KAyy ♥

Cuz Its Never Too Late....

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late
~Never Too Late~Three Days Grace~from the album One X

Theres the SOng of the Day. I think i'm going to start a new blog for songs. like a song of the day/Artist of the week thing.
I think itd be cool. Ima start on that after this post.
So. Guess what? being in ROTC is finally paying off, a little. theres a drill competition in the program and we're competting form Honor FLight, which is apparently "AMAZING" and i've even heard that "winning HOnor FLight is better than meeting Edward Cullen himself." I doubt its that good. but anyway. the drill portion is a major part of it. And the top nine cadets in the flight get to compete and im one of the nine! yayness! and NIkkis coming to watch {which idk on how thats working but....} and then im checkin myself out and were getting food!! I still hate this uniform though, its too baggy. Its like really loose in the jacket until it gets to the wrists then its like skin tight and it stops right at the wrist which anyone who knows me knows i CANT STAND that. at all. and lets see what else...oh English! so english was absoluetly hilarious. the dvd player stopped working so everyone was making fun of Cauis's solutions and me and Helen kept suggesting JAne come help him. And speaking of the lovely Twilight, look at the quote i found on the imdb.com page for Twilight

[from trailer]
Edward Cullen: You better hold on tight, spider-monkey!

SPIDER MONKEY?! what the hell?!
someone pleased explain to me where edward might POSSIBLY say this because i dont see it! ugh!
i mean, seriously? Spider-monkey?COuld ya at least say something a bit more....edward-esque? because thats a "what the hell" moment right there. ugh! well im going to start up the songs blog. see ya later.
peace
~KAyy ♥

The Struggle Within

Reaching out for something you've got to feel
While clutching to what you had thought was real

Kicking at a dead horse pleases you
No way of showing your gratitude
So many things you don't want to do
What is it? what have you got to lose

What the hell (What the hell)
What is you think you're gonna find?
Hypocrite (Hypocrite)
Boredom sets into the boring mind

Struggle within it suits you fine
Struggle within your ruin
Struggle within you seal your own coffin
Struggle within the struggling within

Home is not a home it becomes a hell
Turning it into your prison cell
Advantages are taken, not handed out
While you struggle inside your hell

Reaching out (reaching out)
Grabbing for something tou've got to feel
Closing in (closing in)
The pressure upon you is so real

Struggle within it suits you fine
Struggle within your ruin
Struggle within you seal your own coffin
Struggle within the struggling within

Reaching out for something you've got to feel
While clutching to what you had thought was real

What the hell (what the hell)
What is you think you're gonna find
Hypocrite (hypocrite)
Boredom sets into the boring mind

Struggle within it suits you fine
Struggle within your ruin
Struggle within you seal your own coffin
Struggle within the struggling within
~The Struggle Within~Metallica~The Black Album

So i have officially decided that this is the third best Metallica song ever. First is "Enter Sandman", second is "One", which is ironicly enough number four on the ...And Justice For All cd. Anyway. Just read the comment, Kansas, and thats a pretty good idea. And as soon as i get time i swear i'll read your stories. I should have time tomorrow in class. i'll read them there. And I think i might do the mail thing, where you were talking about mailing them to yourself. Pretty good idea. I might do it. Thats of course after i get the story done. I recently had to redo the entire story because as one of my friends Nathaniel pointed out, the title I had didnt fit. And then the change of the title led to story alterations and then the discovery of the Copper Ridge stuff made the story even better and now the sotry line has changed dramatically. And so the title of the book is From Ebony to Ivory, just so ya can look for it there Kansas. So like when it gets published be shure to look for it. And as for the meaning of the song, as posted above, is....i dont know. I had a reason but i forgotteded it. whoops. I know there was a reason though. Oh wow. So you the crazies in CMS? now they're watching Family Guy on the computer and i keep hearing Peter say something about Spider Man. Oh so Ghost Hunters is on tonight. I might watch it,I gotta also find the rerun of last night SVU cuz i forgot to watch it. I slept. BUt its on Sunday, May 4 at 10 on NBC. SOmone remind me to watch it. Lol. and speakin gof SVU, helen gave me her season five, i think, because she never watches it and figured i'd get more use out of it than McKays. Itd sit on a shelf and rot. God I'm having issues again. This stupid brace! And omigah, Keyboarding was HELL with this brace. My top was like 40 when normally 60. the bell just rang. shit. we're leaving in like 5 minutes. I'll post this. Bye.

~KAyy